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I was a Boy

 i was a boy listen on youtube or here I exiled myself from the outside into the void  Not to run away but to find myself  I thought & believed what I observed to be the difference there had been signs of crumblings & decay = I need to rebuild myself  To know me before I introduce myself to others In this strange atmosphere I realized that  I've discovered an ancient pulse  it’s found in every reciprocation  with born whispers from breathing souls  = reaching into every mind through grievances laid on walls    tagging through skin for best results via gentle touch and through these we find the divine that lifts us up And being alone I had only one place to search ,  further inward, down in the sub basement of my core  i needed a reflection of me to see me in the third person Am I searching for the divinity of god or the divinity from within?  it started when I was a boy and she was nothing in the void I was a boy a...
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Do not misunderstand what i do here, all I do is spoken word poetry with music, these are my personal poems, inspired by my muse (yes, a real beautiful female, and she represents life), I do not sing or rap (I don't have the voice) I'm just a regular old guy, but I know how I feel and the need to express it, I hope this type of poems/music combo will gain an audience and maybe a real talent one day will take this to the next level. if i can do this, so can you, give it a shot. don't worry about what people think or say. thanks. azdi404

 

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or listen here sorted by Albums:

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 Album 

01- Spectrums of Laly the Muse

Released by Distrokid July 1, 2025 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Innuendos  

02- Is It Cruel To Be Kind

03- Laly's Wailing Wall 

04- Don’t Tell Me

05- Freak Healer  

06- Pedestal

07- Precious laly

08- Something Ordinary

09- the Story of Amen

10- Nightfall 

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 Album 

02- Jerusalem Moon Rising

Released by distrokid July 21, 2025 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Begotten Rapture

02- Throne of Lies

03- Blind Euphoria State

04- I Can’t Be

05- Side

06- Have Some

07- Jerusalem Moon

08- Unripened Dreams

09- Calling My Own

10- Welcome to Earth Laly

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 Album 

03- Nursing Therapy Healing

Released by Distrokid August 11, 2025 


  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Revolving

02- The End

03- White Page

04- The Way I Know

05- Sober Fear

06- I Loved You There

07- Evil Me

08- Green Eyes Push

09- BlindFolded

10- Escape

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 Album 

04- Acute Chronic Elcee-ism

Released by Distrokid September 1, 2025 


  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- I Walked In

02- DeathBed

03- In My Room

04- Dire solver

05- Juice

06- Laly's Room

07- By an Oasis

08- Oh Satan

09- Sacred Temple

10- Spring Room  

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 Album

05- Tales From The Western Wall

Released by Distrokid September 22, 2025


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Holes in our Passion

02- By the Oak Tree

03- Disease & Void

04- Journey

05- What I See

06- Butchered

07- Sleep Baby Sleep 

08- New Religion

09- Smeared Name  

10- April Fool  

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 Album 

06- Creating Laly Anew

Released by Distrokid October 12, 2025


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Creation

02- Validate

03- Addicted Bum

04- I Feel Kamikaze

05- Friend-Zoned 

06- Deranged Moments

07- Straining

08- Black

09- Dying Sequence

10- Rag Doll Boy

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 Album 

07- My Own Mecca

Released by Distrokid  November 1, 2025


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- My Own Mecca

02- Someone

03- Broken

04- the Offering

05- Apologies to Laly

06- Guilt Contagious

07- Blunders

08- Kissing a Saint

09- Laly's birthday

10- Female Fury

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 Album 

08- Odes & Verses for Laly

Released by Distrokid  November 17, 2025


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Laly's Covid Smile

02- Unforgiven  

03- Shotgun Drive

04- Analyze my Poems

05- Influence

06- Seven Sins Menu

07- Burn Your Name

08- Break Through

09- Violation on Chastity

10- Dream Machine  

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Album 

09- Welcome to Lalyville

Released by Distrokid December 1, 2025


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- An Ode to Beauty

02- Red Flags

03- Strange Soul Brew

04- Outcast

05- Cooler Dead

06- Laly's Crystalized Smile

07- Day Old Orphan

08- Come As You Are

09- Crazy & Dead

10- Pendulum Drums

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 Album

10- Feel the Lalyism Vibes

Released by Distrokid December 15, 2025

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Feed

02- Envy Free

03- Airwaves

04- Never Lasting Lies

05- Come to Me

06- Laly Free

07- Backfire

08- Un-God Like

09- Why?

10- Wants of Me

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Album

11- Laly's Breathing Pearls

Released by Distrokid January 5, 2026

01- Hey You

02- Stay In My Head Laly

03- Dead Pleasure

04- Anonymously Yours

05- Smile Junkie

06- Live the Lie

07- Seven Hours Late

08- Come Unhinged

09- Ending the End

10- Semi Green Patch 

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Album

12- Hallelujah Laly Forever

Released by Distrokid January 20, 2026


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Hallelujah Laly

02- Simple Human

03- Favorite Liar

04- North Star

05- Never Go Away

06- Days of Tel Aviv

07- Driven Beyond

08- Reborn Infancy

09- Untraceable

10- Coronation House

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Album 

13- Inter-Soul Expressway

Released by Distrokid February 10, 2026


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Idiotic Prayers 

02- a Song for Chanel

03- Tania After 6

04- Laid Back Sachie

05- Bernadine's Moves

06- Down in the Caribbean

07- War Monger

08- Stone Cold Maria

09- Olivia's Night 

10- Maria's Beauty Sleep

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Album 

14- Roses to Judea & Samaria

Released by Distrokid


  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Beautiful Drowning

02- Friends

03- Figure Me Out

04- Disposition

05- Rose of Judah

06- Roaming Grave Burn

07- Empty of You

08- Sleep Baby Sleep Sleep Some More

09- I Lose My Mind

10- Into You

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Album

15- Laly’s Hypnotic Diastema Smile

Released by Distrokid


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Iron Lung

02- 55 vs 25

03- Duality

04- Withered

05- Pretty Dirty Mind

06- Good Dead Day   

07- Bow Down

08- Deflower My Soul

09- Sign of Times

10- Abuse

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Album 

16- Hello Beautiful Laly 

Released by  Distrokid

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Ashes & Dust

02- Broadway Soundtrack  

03- Laly's Shadow Games  

04- Sporadic Worship Thoughts  

05- Hello Laly 

06- Digital Affair 

07- Impure Intentions 

08- Strange Days 

09- Breach 

 10- Judea & Samaria v1

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Album 

17- Laly's Midnight Sessions

Released by Distrokid  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Serious Games

02- Prelude

03- Face to Face Standoff

04-  Schism 

05- After Dark my Adore

06- Untitled Story

07- Players & Playgrounds

08- Memory Clout

09- Derailed 

10- Sick Drop

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Album

18- LalyLand

Released by Distrokid

 


01- ColdPlay Mood

02- Youth Lyrics

03- Talk to Me

04- Failure to Launch

05-  If

06- Green Saxophone Notes

07- Tulip Stem

08- Pretender

09- Policy of Truth 

10- I was a Boy 

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Album

19- Era of Hope 

Released by Distrokid



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Creating Laly  

02- Seven Sins Menu Flavor

03- Judea & Samaria Trek 

04- Hibernation 

05- Voodoo Eyes 

06- Smeared Name in Mexico

07- the Offering Plea 

08-  Pretending  

09- Favorite Liar Forever

10- Laly Free Gently

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 Album

20- Salma of Aghadir 

Released by Distrokid 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

01- Hey Salma

02- I am you Salma

03- My World

04- Simple Greed 

05- Freedom Blues 

06- Imagine this Salma 

07- Salma's Waiting Games 

08- In my Place  

09- I came for Something 

10- Ghetto Star 

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Album 

 21- All the Girls

Released by Distrokid 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 01- Lost Rebellion  

 02- Faith in me

03- Etiquette of Separation

04- Casablanca Maria 

05- All the Girls 

06- Disclaimer 

07- Tell me Baby 

08- I'm Still Human 

09- When we Collide 

10- Make You Human 

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Extra 

02- Begotten Rapture to Juliette  

03-  Stay in my Head Baby 

04- Baby's Wailing Wall  

06- Baby's Birthday

07- Apologies to Baby  

09-  the Offering (Dark Mode) v2 

10- dead & gone (youtube + here only )  

11- Hallelujah Baby

12- Laly free v1   

13- Judea & Samaria v2  

 

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