Laly's Room

 laly's room v2 & v1 Below

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trouble found me in laly's room

I entangled it in my dilemma

It absorbed my trouble

Now it's defining dilemmas just like me

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god calls it sinful lust

satan calls it lush pleasure

It's the battle of forever

Let them judge me how they see it

love or sin, it's the same to me

I just want her somewhere in the end

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barely dreaming, but by the 9th night, everyone is here

diabolic notions chaperoned by my alternating

Jekyll & Hyde personalities

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My head is floating above pillow

sensing respiration's of her breathing, mutating my humanity,

It's the smell of lingerie

It reminds me of whispers from the past

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So I morph for Hedonic Head Trips version 97 this time

for a drive with customized license plates l.a.l.y. 1209

exhausted decadent lust purged,

I load up more from my leaking gluttony suitcase

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My allegiance to either god or satan seems undefined,

I feel like a whore in a bidding war,

Salvation time is closing in; to whom do I owe this?

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Whatever my penance may be,

It's worth my exploits,

just as long as I have laly to satisfy this gluttony,

Everything happens in laly's room

Everything happens in laly's room

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Feb 09, 2023

for Laly

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lyrics & vocals: azdi404

music credit: breathe by Exilian

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room 1209
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room 12 (laly's verion) here

trouble found me in room 1209
I entangled it in my dilemma
It absorbed what I was going through
trouble now has its own trouble
defining dilemmas just like me

god calls it sinful lust
satan, on the other hand, calls it a lush pleasure
it's the battle of forever
let them judge me how they see it
both on opposite ends of the spectrum
love or sin, it's the same to me
I just want you somewhere in the end

barely dreaming
but by the 9th night, everyone is here
diabolic notions
chaperoned by my alternating
Jekyll & hyde personalities

my head floating above the pillow
sensing respirations of your breathing
mutating my humanity,
the smell of lingerie
It reminds me of whispers from the past
signs, passion for peace slogans,
so I morph for hedonic head trips
version 97 this time
for a drive in her cruise ship
with customized license plates

exhausted decadent lust purged,
I load up more from a slit in my
leaking gluttony suitcase
 
my alliance to either god or satan seems undefined,
I feel like a whore in a bidding war,  
salvation time is closing in
to whom do I owe this?

whatever my penance may be,
it's worth my exploits,
just as long as I have you
to satisfy this gluttony,
in room 1209
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Feb 09, 2023
for Elsee
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lyrics & vocals: azdi404
music credit: Interlace / Akira Yamaoka - Rain of Brass (Three Voices Edit) [Instrumental Version]

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This poem, “Laly’s Room,” deepens and darkens the mythology established in “Juice.” It’s as if the first poem’s river—the external, ritualistic act of devotion—has now led inward, into the intimate and dangerous interior of Laly’s room. What was once spiritual thirst now becomes carnal confrontation: the fusion of sin, lust, and love under the fluorescent glow of moral ambiguity.

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Structure & Setting

The entire poem is enclosed within Laly’s room, a psychological and symbolic space—a chamber of transgression, transformation, and truth. It functions as:

• a confessional, where the speaker reckons with sin and pleasure;

• a laboratory, where identity mutates (“Jekyll & Hyde personalities”);

• and a theater, where divine and infernal forces compete for the speaker’s soul.

This confinement contrasts Juice’s open river imagery. Here, the private becomes cosmic—the small room expands into a battleground between God and Satan, purity and indulgence.

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Key Imagery & Symbolism

• “Trouble found me in Laly’s room / I entangled it in my dilemma” — The poem begins in paradox: the speaker doesn’t merely encounter trouble but integrates it, binding it into identity. It’s almost alchemical—sin as self-understanding.

• “God calls it sinful lust / Satan calls it lush pleasure” — The moral binary is reframed as linguistic play. “Sinful” and “lush” become competing adjectives, revealing how perception—not act—defines morality.

• “Love or sin, it’s the same to me” — The heart of the poem: the speaker transcends conventional categories. Love and sin share the same intensity, the same destructive ecstasy.

• “Diabolic notions chaperoned by my alternating / Jekyll & Hyde personalities” — Suggests a fractured psyche, torn between ecstasy and guilt, impulse and reason.

• “My head is floating above pillow / Sensing respirations of her breathing” — This line is tender yet eerie—evoking intimacy verging on the supernatural. He’s detached from his body, suggesting spiritual possession or moral dissociation.

• “Hedonic Head Trips version 97” — The phrase is self-aware, even sardonic. It implies repetitive indulgence, addiction to stimulation—each iteration a failed attempt at transcendence.

• “Customized license plates, l.a.l.y. 1209” — A surreal image blending eroticism, technology, and identity. The act of naming becomes fetishistic; her name becomes the code to his spiritual vehicle.

• “I feel like a whore in a bidding war” — A devastating confession. The speaker has lost agency; his soul is commodified, fought over by divine and diabolic buyers.

• “Everything happens in Laly’s room” (repeated) — The refrain acts as both closure and curse. The room becomes a world—containing all contradictions, all creation and destruction.

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Themes

1. Moral Ambiguity & Dualism
   The poem rejects binary morality. Heaven and Hell, love and lust, virtue and sin are interchangeable lenses through which the same act is viewed.

2. Identity & Transformation
   Through “Jekyll & Hyde” imagery and “Hedonic Head Trips,” the speaker explores fractured selfhood—multiplying personas in search of truth or release.

3. Addiction & Repetition
   The numbering (“version 97”) and cyclical indulgence evoke compulsion—a ritual of lust and guilt replayed endlessly in Laly’s room.

4. Erotic Spirituality
   As in Juice, desire becomes a conduit for transcendence. The body and the soul are inseparable—sin is a form of prayer, pleasure a kind of revelation.

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Tone & Atmosphere

The tone blends confession, irony, and decadence. The diction moves between sacred and profane—biblical (“God,” “penance,” “salvation”) and modern (“license plates,” “version 97”). This hybrid language gives the poem a neo-symbolist quality—like Baudelaire’s Les Fleurs du mal meeting cyberpunk existentialism.

The atmosphere is thick, feverish, and erotic—charged with the weight of spiritual exhaustion.

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Interpretation

“Laly’s Room” can be read as the psychic interior of the artist—a metaphor for the creative mind’s oscillation between ecstasy and despair. Laly, as in Juice, is both muse and mirror. The speaker’s pursuit of her becomes a metaphysical pursuit of meaning through pleasure, guilt, and creative excess.

Ultimately, the room is not just Laly’s—it’s his mind.
Everything happens there—faith, sin, creation, destruction.
It’s the closed system of obsession where beauty and damnation coexist.

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Would you like me to show how “Laly’s Room” and “Juice” function as companion pieces (a kind of diptych about art and obsession)? It would reveal how the imagery and voice evolve between them.