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  spring room listen on youtube or here   I caress my fragile head a womb of emotions for you a cave carved by enslaved fingers to make room for your ego painted walls with the color crimson with torn fingers ... Windows flooded by light purging its sorrows on departure. and You, retaking everything again = you come to me fiction   you come to me a strange concept   you come as a white page   like a punctual spring with or without warning. while i'm waiting in the spring room = feeling another wave of labor new rumors are born   I scripted them into condolences   and send them as gift cards   to all your hollowed-out victims, but I'm still here, grieving the gone nursing the feeble preparing condolences for my replacement. Waiting my turn in the spring room... = you come to me fiction   you come to me a strange concept   you come as a white page   like a punctual spring with or without warning. while i'm waiting in the spring roo...

  I Can't Be v2 listen on youtube or here   I can't be v1 listen on youtube or here I can say many things but i'll tell you what i can't be I can't be the flame your wishing heart expects, or the hoping hub for a better tale. = I can't be the better side of today that steadies you when I’m still grounded in a shaky yesterday. = but shame on me, that I'll wait for you in a dream, to pass me by for hire. = I can't be the liar that expires when I meet you and still, be this boy inside or change the man outside. = I can say many things but i'll tell you what i can't be I can't be the pretender on my knees. Asking you to use me one more time. = I tour wounds & feelings, mismatching empathy moments wishing to be something I'll never be. = I can hold either... my desires that burn my heart   or the truth that is too heavy to handle. = cast me aside, it can be the first step to healing, I don't deserve to have you, exempt me from this...

Don’t Tell Me v2 listen on youtube or here   don't tell me v1  listen on youtube or here    don’t tell me that you’re here just drop by & let me drop where I am   don’t let me know how you prayed at the walls of my ruins   don’t let me understand your vendetta   drop the peace pin from your heart     & kill me with tenderness where I lay. don’t let me know how my world will crumble down   just raise a last toast before I go tonight because you’ve won. don’t want to hear the sound of me die     don’t want you to repeat the promises you never kept, I’ve memorized them, written on the crumbled paper walls of my skin   don’t twist my death so slow that time expires before me,   before the dying sun comes up, before my organic coffin reaches a grave... I want to crash my final bed, a broken man    before you dance on my aborted memory   just for you to watch me cave in tonight  ...

  red flags v2 listen on youtube or here red flags v1 listen on youtube or here Red flags I confess to myself that I liked everything bad about you Religious ways by day Sultry sways by night are fine I'm lacking daily doses of salt flavor I fell for the flags of white & blue I'm lacking heed I didn't care what the hating gossip said That's why I ignored the red flags A thought of clarity by daylight, when you're gone It's all good when you're here I've knitted a poem for warmth, boosting immunity from night pain Repulsing the rashes of hindsight when you're away The world lacks anything similar to you That's why I ignored the red flags So,The waves of my breathing days Spelled it to doom; it was so clear I chose not to listen I have breathed them all my life, they wouldn't lie Imprints of my shadow on the wall, I stood by helpless With my smile drawn with crayons, the little things I cared for Don't reciprocate anymore My ...

  Evil Me listen on youtube or here   let me bleed out the evil me to even the score     to make you feel better on the inside & in my head   = i want you to believe that I don’t envy you underneath the scared surface of my face underneath this gray withered expressions going all out alluding me to follow. = just like the crowded clouds in the sky rejecting the claim in my story so I chew on silence while I’m postponed   maybe I’ll be slain by you tonight  via poisoned kiss = so I turn to redemption & to love god is escaping you   and to love you is death without god and my naivety loves you more all this because I stole a combined moment of us   hid it in these pages for comfort that I shall tailor my skin to fit your needs   crucify my lips a symbol of redemption   that I won’t confess this love to anyone but you = I shall let the evil me bleed out on a crazy horse galloping towards my cave, ignoring the crowd chee...

 Come to me listen on youtube or here   Come to me Waiting for you on mountain slopes Flow to me like infused iced lava Come like a heavy sword on a guilty neck I'm patient as perfume lands on your chest Craving you like a synagogue's burning sandalwood Invent a story My imagination and baby angels believe the same I cherish you like what water is to life Flood my senses, a tsunami I'll guide it with the confidence of Buddha Just come to me My adore, you are to me like the savior Moses Taking me to the border Coming to me like barefoot Jesus Wanting nothing but healing Speaking to me like the sacred revelations of Mohammad I'll get the message Create me anew Overhaul this old creation like first man Adam Come to me, in the name of god With the all the awe you can bring Come to me, with your smile for my sake I've chosen a spot for you to execute me at your leisure Swiftly, a cool breeze, not to waste your time The thrill of starting all over is undeniable Every tim...

 Burn your name  v2 listen on youtube or here Burn your name v1 listen on youtube or here   so how do you feel? about the mutiny against you, the holy ? I'm changing the narrative redeeming myself burning the letters = Rebuffed traps of aliases in your name sailed away to another shore now I'm burning you for comfort; I'm burning your name. = as a last-ditch, I came to you staggering, exposing my plans & I left an angry wrecking ball when you filed me as a friend = The haunting starts as you sleep when the effect of your lies lightens, a triangle of sadness , you, me & your name. = do you remember the day the charming tip of your tongue, smudged red graffiti on the cobblestone sidewalks of my life,? corrupted in the name of giving butter & honey, those flavored memories & what comes with them chilled the spines of angels and demons . = you were a blessing, high, gradually sloped into a burden I scratched the night walls to hear ...

  envy free v2 listen on youtube or here    envy free v1 listen on youtube or here   one more time to tell you, baby love , I don't envy you underneath the surface of gray withered scratches. Under my face's uprooted landscape,  but I'm stagnating By the growing tall walls of your stories. so I chose to be drugged by an expired kiss I found in your trash, to keep my feelings vital = whisper with me ooh- baby- love, I'm envy-free. the weight of my redemption quarantined my chances, they're isolated, spread apart from others the matching was so close to you from afar I was gluing them with potions from homegrown patches I grew anticipating you I was whispering, I'm coming to you I was singing, ooh- baby- love, I'm envy-free, I'm envy-free. = all those signs I overlooked the flags that turned red my face grew into an accident on my way to you, from where I came they all waved goodbye praying I won't come back I'm useless to whoever needs m...