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I was a Boy

 i was a boy listen on youtube or here I exiled myself from the outside into the void  Not to run away but to find myself  I thought & believed what I observed to be the difference there had been signs of crumblings & decay = I need to rebuild myself  To know me before I introduce myself to others In this strange atmosphere I realized that  I've discovered an ancient pulse  it’s found in every reciprocation  with born whispers from breathing souls  = reaching into every mind through grievances laid on walls    tagging through skin for best results via gentle touch and through these we find the divine that lifts us up And being alone I had only one place to search ,  further inward, down in the sub basement of my core  i needed a reflection of me to see me in the third person Am I searching for the divinity of god or the divinity from within?  it started when I was a boy and she was nothing in the void I was a boy a...
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Withered

withered
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I heard a voice somewhat pale  
felt gray guilty fingerprints wrapped up in a scarf
you were at the altar with tense wary eyes
sacrificing the mood of my blues
making it right for you.

your life adopted superstitious dreams & tales  
memories engulfed in a bouquet of frowns  
gravity is by the bedpost, distracting the drama  
comforting you that it's alright.  

I strolled a harsh path in your head,
and the doubts diminished walking you home from the rain that night.
yet, in the morning you stood on the corner, waiting  
standing still for the messenger of the dream machine

hoping answers will lay somewhere between whirling leaves  
in the passing's of the soft currents of drifting winds.  

from the watch towers of your past
whispers in your head morphed into a sniper breath
locked me in the crosshairs pulling the trigger
I didn’t think you were such a killer
taking me out after my introduction to you,
you should've told me
you should've told me
I didn’t mean anything to you.

in a candle-lit state of mind one night,
you laid a grip on me, a sad reception,
I watched you getting caught in the moment,  
undecided on how to judge me
did you miscalcuate rushing into me?

Except for a few wavering burns
time with you suited me well
I felt the echoes of the hollow touch
I observed what you didn't wish for faltering to the side,  
I see that you don't feel me next to you withered.  
you should've told me
you should've told me
I didn’t mean anything to you.

I'm next to you withered
you should've told me
I didn’t mean anything to you.
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Sep 08 2022
lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: Lonely by Reza Puncher
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Location: New York, NY 10010, USA

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