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I was a Boy

 i was a boy listen on youtube or here I exiled myself from the outside into the void  Not to run away but to find myself  I thought & believed what I observed to be the difference there had been signs of crumblings & decay = I need to rebuild myself  To know me before I introduce myself to others In this strange atmosphere I realized that  I've discovered an ancient pulse  it’s found in every reciprocation  with born whispers from breathing souls  = reaching into every mind through grievances laid on walls    tagging through skin for best results via gentle touch and through these we find the divine that lifts us up And being alone I had only one place to search ,  further inward, down in the sub basement of my core  i needed a reflection of me to see me in the third person Am I searching for the divinity of god or the divinity from within?  it started when I was a boy and she was nothing in the void I was a boy a...

Why?

why?

listen on youtube or here

 

why ?

why do i
I touch the sky, poke the clouds
But can’t feel the spirit of life around
Where are the powers to help me?
Where are they?
=
I plowed into the earth’s crust.
But all I feel is the dead
Where is life that springs from it?
=
I have a photograph and a backup in my mind
yet still vague, not close enough
=
You are everywhere to be felt, and
nowhere to be seen in my cause,
a true chameleon, you are
=
I walked the destination-free roads
anticipating an ambush from you
I chilled with my aimless moments to kill the time
I possessed your games up to the third base
Where did I divert?
Where did I go wrong?
=
I adjusted the heavens
redirected the clouds to 45 degrees to my left & the winds to 12 knots
rubbed earth’s belly
massaging the dead citizens of my past
=
reintroduced myself to a photograph that can't remember me
rebooted an out-of-sync backup in my mind
Where did my strategy implode?
=
I, In the penthouse, hating you from above
like jealousy's own well-taught spoiled child
discharging rainbows of anger
echoing around me, taunting my failure
=
In reality, all I have is the eulogy of barking dogs
Walking along with me,
on a poor man's funeral procession to exile
To the hills behind the forest
A safe place for me to meditate why
=
why You’re the Promise land without peace
Why do I have the Weapons of war without ammo
seeking petty Peace to ponder on a question
=
Some time out to ask ...
why laly?
Why?
Tell me why?
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Lyrics & vocals by azdi 404
Music credit: depression - by hamrah beats


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