driven beyond

driven beyond
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I’m trying to be,
so let me see what you offered
it was unwanted
but let me dig & plow
in a bottom-free dreamland

so I dived to explore you
in a deep ocean of green
the grassy green you slept on
the scene was beholding
& I was driven beyond
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from private playgrounds to public dominions
I let you play me
controlling yourself, as you say

I read the fear in your beautiful eyes,
the fear of losing your will to the cause of your deception
and it wasn’t what you wanted,
you were almost driven beyond

I felt true emotions underneath the fake touches
what you thought was an illusion
was seven colored pulses seeping from your fingertips

doubt reached you a tad late
I almost met your feelings face to face

so everything's the same as you left it,
when you were almost driven beyond
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occasionally, dials of life spin,
scrambling channels between your face,
your moods and the edge of sanity you fear so much
setting my days into cold chapters
and a pondering heart beneath my skin  
into a senseless machine

granted, remissions failed after we’d grown apart
between sleeping & waking up

hollow harmony, drifting with time,
was too light to capture,
it was driven beyond
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sometimes, looks have two meanings
but with you....meanings are moody spectrums

it’s soothing to feel numb, complex, unclear
relaxed that you’ve touched me
when I’m envied about my state
I wish my friends knew my shock
I wish I could tell them how deranged it is
to dream about you. And too much is an addiction.

we live with what we know
realizing dreams are sometimes misleading
& I'm driven beyond
driven beyond
Baby, I'm driven beyond
.... laly
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lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: LAST CRY  by AP Beatz 2023