Never Lasting Lies

never lasting lies

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between never lasting lies once or twice
I paused to think things through
I felt you in moments knocking me down,
postponing goodbys,
holding me at bay,

it’s my shame I let you hold me
between the obscene & the bold
loathing the moments of recognition
until it came to light.
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I was born & buried Softly to do time
I had faith that lips were for smiling
hands are for greeting
fear is for guiding me into you
but it was worthless on your downside
saints have given up, and sanity walked away.
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Saints have given up, and sanity walked away.
chest too numb to feel the debts of the dead
pulses of deeds amused,
I never went alone into the unknown against you

Love is slow & hard to push around by myself,
too deep to audit what’s left of us
no matter what we give each other.
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in the end,
it’s us; we could never believe my love
it’s the greed in the clarity of the moments
between never lasting lies.
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lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit" away by Ermitty


Location: New York, NY 10010, USA

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