duality

 duality
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I have dual domiciles,
I'm from over there, but I belong here,
I have split identities, dual names, dates of birth,
unknown dates of death,
one mandated by the lord
and one for you to script

I have dual languages,
one for the earthlings & one for you my adore
dual feelings I deal with,
hope & failure, take your pick to manipulate.

I have dual imaginations centering around you,   
over there, you were born from the best of me,
discretion advised, it's concentrated on my past, from my needs
that I molded into the shape of you with some impurities a definite

and over here I've come to see what my mind has begotten
if I wasn't over here
I wouldn't know what I've meant or created from over there.
I witnessed my oath of loyalty travel on raven wings,
coming from a different timeline where I once was
so receive my needs well, as spun flirt or confessions
consider my duality.

any of my dualities could've been the man you needed,
I could've been called up to be your lover, could've
but I didn't consider time,
being old from over there, from another time
and I know I belong over here by your side,
I'm 160 degrees south of you, waiting.  

I have dual domiciles,
one being homeless sealed off from your world
one in my head, away from people's thoughts,
between these dualities coming from a different time
I can't define myself to split any further,
belonging here next to you stranded in your twilight
or over there close to you in my imagination where I once had you

I exist in dual exiles
I'm from over there, but I belong here with you
I'm outside your mind, waiting,
pick one of my dualities and lay the other to rest
I'm waiting
I'm waiting
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lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: The Past by Hamrah Beats - Emotional Piano Guitar Instrumental 2023
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