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I was a Boy

 i was a boy listen on youtube or here I exiled myself from the outside into the void  Not to run away but to find myself  I thought & believed what I observed to be the difference there had been signs of crumblings & decay = I need to rebuild myself  To know me before I introduce myself to others In this strange atmosphere I realized that  I've discovered an ancient pulse  it’s found in every reciprocation  with born whispers from breathing souls  = reaching into every mind through grievances laid on walls    tagging through skin for best results via gentle touch and through these we find the divine that lifts us up And being alone I had only one place to search ,  further inward, down in the sub basement of my core  i needed a reflection of me to see me in the third person Am I searching for the divinity of god or the divinity from within?  it started when I was a boy and she was nothing in the void I was a boy a...

Tulip Stem

tulip stem listen on youtube or here I molded a cast for the broken tulip stem This wooden shack by the deserted block needed a possessed spirit  Something For the tulips to gaze at by the window sill   Where you were once stood  Apathy by you drove the guard dogs to die waiting On my soulless land  I drew a shadow with crayon where the happening Once laid the misfire of fate wailing & waiting at the end of the day  like a wounded sundown gone wrong  I left the shack alone in the dark But i took home with me a cold photo of you gazing the sky  I’m so unsure now I’m so unsure now  if I ever held you so close Your moods hinted I’m not wanted anymore  But you still have and loving all of me imprisoned  So release the idle spirit To roam the roads a vagabond To search for another headrest  A cold spot I can warm up  with stories about you  i saw myself laying at night  counting reincarnated passing souls i wasn’t...