Strange Soul Brew

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Strange soul brew The strange soul brews you concoct, addicts my soul I crave this sensation to have you, in a delicate way So feed my flesh, I'm created to need and you to feed I remedy myself with braided locks of your hair Soaked with saliva from your sweet mouth As a healing antidote I soak in the sun, stretch my skin to dry It makes a better drum echo, for my midnight serenades It cools the moonlight burn What does depression and abuse look like? Look at me strapped & stepped on again Bruised on the dementia side That old familiar pain, swept different parts of me Now demanding one suicide at a time But I'm saved by a traveling morgue, and shoved into an asylum In a room under a glass dome, by the Bermuda triangle Descent of the damned begins When I'm served your concoction, of strange soul brew Arc of the Pendulum extends my sentence Shifting time towards you like moths to a flame I purged electric tears for empathy & watered down laughter Just to fit in Wished myself luck at the fountains of the forgotten But i wasn't qualified I'll see you again my adore when I'm sober When I come off this odd high of strange soul brew But for now Let me ride this flow Let me enjoy this trip with you in my head Mending and molding you as I desire Even though a little hard to manipulate While high on your strange soul brew So for now I fare thee well For now I fare thee well Let me deal with this strange soul brew that you concoct

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Jan 17, 2023

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lyrics & vocals: azdi404

music credit: aura by answerinc

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 strange soul brew v1 lyrics

strange soul brews you concoct, addicts my soul,
I crave this sensation,
to have you in a delicate way,  
so feed my flesh; I'm created to need.
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I soak in the sun  
stretch my skin to dry
it makes a better drum echo for my midnight serenades
it cools the moonlight's burns

braided locks of your hair
soaked with saliva from your sweet mouth,
as a healing lotion...
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What does depression look like?
What does abuse look like?
Look at what you have done.
I've been strapped & stepped on again
bruised on the side
that old familiar pain
different parts of me
wants one suicide at a time.
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a traveling morgue rescues me
admitted to an asylum
under a glass dome by the Bermuda triangle
descent of the damned begins
when they serve me your concoction
I make electric tears
watered down laughter scraped the sorrow from tree barks
wished them luck at the fountains of the forgotten
to count me in....
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Arc of the Pendulum,
extends my sentence
shifting time towards you
like moths to a flame,
every time I remember you
it's a strange soul brew
just as described,
I'll see you again, my love
when I'm sober
when I come off this odd high
of strange soul brew,
but for now...
let me ride this flow,
let me enjoy this trip with you in my head
here I can mend and mold you how I want
so for now
I fare thee well.....
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Jan 17, 2023
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lyrics & vocals: azdi404
music credit: Rain of Brass Petals - Akira Yamaoka

 

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Below is a full, deep analysis of “Strange Soul Brew” — line-by-line, symbolic, psychological, and mythic (because your poems naturally operate in that realm).

This poem is one of your most intense alchemy-of-pain pieces. It uses addiction, occult imagery, and altered states to depict a relationship where longing becomes a drug and the beloved becomes both poison and cure.

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I. WHAT THE POEM IS ABOUT AT ITS CORE

“Strange Soul Brew” is a metaphor for a lover who functions as:

• a drug

• a ritual intoxicant

• an occult elixir

• a self-made mythology

• and a psychological dependency

The speaker knows this “brew” is destructive, but also irresistible.
The voice oscillates between recovery, relapse, ritual, hallucination, and surrender.

This is a poem about trauma bonding, ecstatic obsession, and the paradox of wanting what harms you—but you render it through mystical, surreal, and alchemical imagery, which elevates it from personal pain to mythic experience.

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II. SECTION-BY-SECTION ANALYSIS

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1. “The strange soul brews you concoct, addicts my soul…”

Theme: Addiction as spirituality.

The beloved becomes a witch, sorceress, or alchemist.
The “brew” isn’t a drink—it’s:

• their influence

• their presence

• their emotional power

• their psychological hold

“Addicts my soul” → not just physical addiction, but metaphysical dependence.

“Feed my flesh” → the speaker positions themselves as created for her consumption and for her nourishment.

It’s a self-offering. A sacrifice.

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2. “I remedy myself with braided locks of your hair…”

Hair has always symbolized:

• enchantment

• binding spells

• sympathetic magic

You use it as a healing antidote, meaning:
the same person who wounds you provides the cure.
This is classic trauma-loop logic.

The saliva = ritual intimacy, but also contamination willingly accepted.

This is the language of devotion at any cost.

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3. Sun, skin, drum, moonlight burn

You shift to shamanic imagery:

• sun drying the skin

• turning skin into drum

• moonlight as flame

This section shows the speaker becoming a ritual instrument.
You’re turning your body into a tool for summoning her—like a shaman who uses drums to call spirits.

“Moonlight burn” = the pain of nighttime memories.

“Midnight serenades” = prayer disguised as music.

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4. “What does depression and abuse look like? Look at me…”

This is the poem’s emotional disclosure.

Instead of metaphors, you pull the camera back to reality:

• strapped

• stepped on

• bruised

• dementia side

• demanding suicides

You invoke serial death, “one suicide at a time” = small emotional deaths, not literal ones.

This is trauma speaking through metaphor, but without glamorizing it.

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5. “Saved by a traveling morgue, shoved into an asylum”

Now you shift into Kafka + Dante + Tim Burton territory:

• a morgue as a savior

• an asylum as refuge

• a glass dome by the Bermuda Triangle

This imagery suggests:

• displacement

• cosmic distortion

• the world becoming surreal because the inner world is fractured

“Descent of the damned begins” = a mythic underworld moment.

The beloved’s concoction becomes the ticket to the underworld.

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6. Pendulum, sentenced time, electric tears

Pendulums are:

• clocks

• hypnosis tools

• judgment symbols (“the wrecking pendulum”)

Here, the pendulum shifts time toward the beloved, turning suffering into destiny.

“Electric tears” → forced emotional expression.

“Watered down laughter” → emotional masking.

This section is about performing sanity while deteriorating inside.

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7. “Wished myself luck at the fountains of the forgotten”

This is pure myth.

It recalls:

• Lethe (river of forgetting in Greek myth)

• wishing wells

• baptismal erasure

But the speaker is not qualified to forget.
This reinforces addiction:
You can’t forget the one who intoxicates you.

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8. “I’ll see you again when I’m sober…”

This is the poem’s tragic hinge.

Sober = clarity.
High = delusion, longing, fantasy.

You admit you distort the beloved in your mind:

“Mending and molding you as I desire
Even though a little hard to manipulate…”

This shows self-awareness.
You know the version of her in your head is manufactured, but you embrace it.

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9. “So for now, I fare thee well…”

This repeated farewell is not a goodbye.
It is a relapse ritual, a temporary distance before returning to the addiction.

Ending with a farewell is ironic because the poem circles back to her brew, creating a loop.

This is a trauma cycle rendered as a spell.

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III. THEMATIC CORE

1. Toxic Devotion / Sacred Addiction

You elevate obsession to liturgy.
The beloved becomes:

• witch

• goddess

• poisoner

• savior

2. Body as Ritual Object

Skin, hair, saliva, drums, tears — the body becomes an altar.

3. Self-Destruction as Devotion

“Suicide at a time,” “dementia side,” “asylum,” “damned”—
The self is both victim and participant.

4. Dissociation and Fantasy

The “brew” symbolizes mental escape:
Your imagination creates an alternate reality where she returns.

5. The Mythic Psyche

Your poems often operate like modern myth.
This one is no exception—its symbols are ritualistic, alchemical, shamanic.

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IV. WHAT MAKES THIS POEM POWERFUL

• The alchemy: turning emotional dependency into occult ritual.

• The surrealism: morgues traveling, pendulums sentencing, glass domes in Bermuda.

• The self-awareness: calling out depression and abuse without euphemism.

• The linguistic violence: “one suicide at a time” is devastating.

• The mythic exaggeration: but grounded in emotional truth.

• The ending loop: the poem ends where it began—still drinking the soul brew.

This is one of your darkest, most cinematic pieces.

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