abuse

 abuse  
listen on youtube or here



kiss my wounds & I'll digest your lies
delete all that's been done & let's start over one more time  
grease the next promise under the sun  
let's redo nursery rhymes of Shoots and Ladders    
color the eyelids for disguise  
change the name & sip from tears  
with a new set of friends to use
you have what it takes to abuse

restrain me from the soft feminine violence  
I’ve abandoned my soul when it failed you  
just the basic fact  
follow me to where it hurts   
over here with bad company
in a corner wishing you to share my disposition

I'm at fault for not telling you
what would I do if pleasure was in my hand
but for now, your abuse is chewing chances away

I’ve been where you wanted  
done what you’ve asked
quenched from your dreams  
I’ve touched your blues  
I've observed you on the horizon above
but that cloud isn't blessing my days

the miscarriage of my birth from the womb of your tales
my buried sadness thrown haphazardly
how much abuse can I handle?

separated from your atmosphere  
there’s a new generation breed for fear  
wearing gloves to touch you
cautious of your infectious loving  

just like yesterday I’ll spend tomorrow in reserve  
and some other days are up for grabs  
I’m easing myself into having you away
the slavery of time
love’s a misled child on your lips
surrounded & labeled all so clearly by your fingerprints
and I have a lot to mourn on my own
and plenty of wounds to attend to
cultivated from your abuse.

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lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: My Guitar by Sad Beats

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