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I was a Boy

 i was a boy listen on youtube or here I exiled myself from the outside into the void  Not to run away but to find myself  I thought & believed what I observed to be the difference there had been signs of crumblings & decay = I need to rebuild myself  To know me before I introduce myself to others In this strange atmosphere I realized that  I've discovered an ancient pulse  it’s found in every reciprocation  with born whispers from breathing souls  = reaching into every mind through grievances laid on walls    tagging through skin for best results via gentle touch and through these we find the divine that lifts us up And being alone I had only one place to search ,  further inward, down in the sub basement of my core  i needed a reflection of me to see me in the third person Am I searching for the divinity of god or the divinity from within?  it started when I was a boy and she was nothing in the void I was a boy a...

Is it Cruel to be Kind?

  Is it cruel to be kind? v2 listen on youtube or here    Is it cruel to be kind? listen on youtube or here it was a beautiful addiction when it began at the eastern wall, I lied with starving spider monkeys going on 300 weeks so far accumulating new pollution on my side bleeding excess black words I find unnamed, meanings untagged, marked in red phrases hit me; I’m bruised & blue, some tamed, some just come along walking the green   I’m so color-full. and youre stil cruel to me = misery awaits today like a good friend rushing me into the mood to filter my thoughts that there is no such thing as the world is enough, but to have you is, until I sleep....   = i'll wait for a lie tucked under suspicious hours I’ll meet the creeper wherever I may roam on the flip side of the world to give up the ghost , for I’m not permitted to want just accepting what was given then I’ll be fine again when I go with the flow down below because I prayed that I wanted you to...

Shotgun Drive

shotgun drive    listen on youtube or here Drive me far and away.    on a shotgun drive tonight alongside you    I don’t have to know where    It's a deadly desire to go there.    so take the first road to nowhere     make a pit stop where the street has no name .   I could hear my instincts calling that I lost you a while ago.    for everyone I knew became a stranger    the distance contaminated by desertion   calling from everywhere    I split into pieces, following everything that belonged to you    and I'm nowhere to be found Drive me far and away; does it really matter?      dispersed infection transfigured my faith     you’re to be found so lost next to me   I'm so far next to you.    I'm receding back to where I once belonged.   I'll self-heal on this trip, growing back my broken fingers.     Some fighting ...

Figure Me Out

Figure me out listen on youtube or here Figure me out strong revenging words  followed the light crashing walls, every curse falls into rust & salt it's somewhere deep that's taking me fast and steady  wiping the smile off the sky with an ominous omen stuffing my faith in you when all my kings fail to lift me, whenever I deny my maker i still have questions I'm still looking out for you in the dire's of uncreative, violent moods  carving stubbornness from my soul I seldom struggle for an introduction to a god of your choice, I have a few complaints about you somehow, about depriving me of full fledged touches to figure me out configure my intentions during hibernation when you decide to come around Tell me what I’ve been missing when I wake up. Remind me what comes with you. you know what? i'll remind you I'll remind you that With you comes  Stunted dreams Mirage visions,  breaking wishbones .... with all that, ...