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I was a Boy

 i was a boy listen on youtube or here I exiled myself from the outside into the void  Not to run away but to find myself  I thought & believed what I observed to be the difference there had been signs of crumblings & decay = I need to rebuild myself  To know me before I introduce myself to others In this strange atmosphere I realized that  I've discovered an ancient pulse  it’s found in every reciprocation  with born whispers from breathing souls  = reaching into every mind through grievances laid on walls    tagging through skin for best results via gentle touch and through these we find the divine that lifts us up And being alone I had only one place to search ,  further inward, down in the sub basement of my core  i needed a reflection of me to see me in the third person Am I searching for the divinity of god or the divinity from within?  it started when I was a boy and she was nothing in the void I was a boy a...

Iron Lung

iron lung listen on youtube or here ambush me hook line and sinker when your BREATHs invades THIS CITY OF MINE AND I lose MY SELF BEFORE i get to face you to test my natural resolve THE MORE I TWIST YOUR NAME THE MORE I FIND OUT WHAT IT MEANS to breathe WHATEVER I FEEL IT’S ME INSANE IN YOUR NAME OVER AND OVER IT’S JUST THE SAME dream with you in different shades of deceit A photograph is now a tender PAPER WALL AS YOUR photo glows under my spell AND burnt rumors are petals of ASHES laying all around me I've talked the talk and i need to walk it  IT’S HERE ...HELUCINATIONS It's A DARKER SHADE OF WHITE parallel to A COOL lie smooth as A SIMPLE BLISTER and LANDMINEs OF HATE between THE BENDS misfired MY BONES, THE THIRST, all of me HIGH & DRY explaining it's just TO BULLET PROOF MY IRON LUNG & breathe when i see you again to tell you  i have an anthem for you about me so plant ME IN the WOMB of your mind to impregnate your thoughts  LET ME BE THE CENTER FIGURE IN YO...

If

 IF listen on youtube or here IF I EVER HAD 30 HEARTS  29 would've bled for you on rotation and one for me to live on IF I EVER HAD A PICTURE OF YOU it wouldn't make a difference you're occupying my head any way IF I EVER HAD A DESIRE TO LEAVE YOU i pondered at times would it matter? you would've been at the destination anyway  IF I EVER HAD A WORD TO HEAL ME  i wouldn't use it,  considering there isn't a mixture of your breath in it   its a matter of time before i miss you, miss being alive  IF I EVER HAD A blind NURSERY rhyme i would want you to play it on my chest like a piano via braille it all depends on if if only i had an if  i would make everything come true IF I EVER HAD A VISION FOR that gotchya MOMENT  i wouldn't want it to expire IF I EVER HAD A BREATH OF SURPRISE  i want you to see my appreciated reaction IF I EVER HAD A TRIP INTO MY FATE I WOULD PUNCTURE THE SCRIPT just to loiter & squatter in your realm  to s...

Failure to Launch

failure to launch listen on youtube or here fast love passed me by without a glance i was late for the last train track back to lalyland i lost my laughter fading with the rear lights I bid my kith & kins a farewell with a rock lullaby "I'm closer to the edge"  and 3 fake smiles for others to admire as spare  I have a memorial design in hand to participate  to Show off in your annual carnage parade Instilling fear in those challenging fools but me. and I’ll justify the lie  I'll Retreat into the oceans covering 2/3 of the earth away from where you cover the rest.” where you heart surf the vulnerable  Let me converse with you at a sidewalk cafe  I'll blend in with scrolling screens seeking the evening news taking you out of your element sniping me as your latest trend I'll Throw stones at the sky when away crawl into holes for re-enforcement thoughts confessing I didn’t obey the false positive callings but because the autistic shape of my heart it  ...

Talk to Me

 TALK TO ME listen on youtube or here MY wandering SOUL Drifted INTO the oncoming CLOUDS lane and shadows OF YOUR smile flickered like rebellious butterflies THE DAY YOU LEFT ME FAR BEHIND. YOU SHOULD’VE warned me IT’S HARD WITHOUT YOU, sprinkling remnants OF WINE drops escaped my glass AFFECTION Lit a CANDLE for me romancing the moment to come while waiting for you to reach out and talk to me  polish YOUR WORDS before dispatching them my way LAUGHTER AND SORROWS are a fabric OF US. I’VE KNOWN THEN i couldn't frame you in words TO JUSTIFY YOU AS ROADS NEVER PAVED WEREN’T MEANT TO REACH THE END. I’VE SEEN you come, I'm stalling to let you GO, As a tired VOICE TAPPING ME SOFTLY UTTERING to me to confess  that you're not mine it was just my turn i still need to talk to you  the YEARS I've been waiting for HAVE COME Passing me TO REST 5 miles behind me handing over a signature of YOUR PILLOW LIPS to your friends to play with mesmerizing them  Talk To Me ON my LONELY...