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Freedom Blues

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Pretender

pretender 

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bury the dead in the hungry grounds  
those who dared to run across your minefields  
poor hysterical lives, claiming to be your friend,
= 
those eager for the moment when today touches tomorrow
but your promises vanishes just like our miserable ambitions  
you'll become yesterday's memories and tomorrow's hope all over again

I'm a man with an empty today waiting for a new tomorrow
I feel estranged starting from the bottom
pretending since yesterday that I’m not missing you
=
exploring cavities in my life
somethings replaces others
achievements are grounded
destinations become a challenge,
even faith lost interest in me pretending
it was something without you
=
and without you pretending is empty
some said I was too rough
sharing my head with loaded silence
the presence of silence is waiting
to fulfill its emptiness...
=
and leaving is a constant problem
you see, Every blood drip comes from a vein
Every bird homes back to a nest
Babies are detached from wombs
& God can be traced through human tears
Everything has an origin
=
and From where I was leaving to arriving
it's all a trip within you
every me starts and ends with you
I have no option but to pretend
=
a glimpse of light emits speckles of a new notion  
a fact that I can not see you as a friend
but navigating to you announcing a half-hearted confession  
a devious plan that, for now,
=
for now, I've adopted a simple plan like the fools before me
I'll risk surviving the minefields
I'll risk being a hypocrite
I'll pretend to be your friend  
it's all about pretending
=
I just wish to kill the glow in my eyes when I see you
it gives me away, but I'll pretend somehow
I'll pretend
I'll pretend I'm a pretender

=
bury the dead in the hungry grounds  
those who dared to run across your minefields  
poor hysterical lives, claiming to be your friend,
= 
those eager for the moment when today touches tomorrow
but your promises vanishes just like our miserable ambitions  
you'll become yesterday's memories and tomorrow's hope all over again

== (outro)
I'll pretend
I'll pretend I'm a pretender
I'll pretend
I'll pretend I'm a pretender


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lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: deviant by exilian
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Sep 10, 2022

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pretender v2
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bury the dead in the hungry grounds
those who dared to run across your minefields
poor hysterical lives, claiming to be your friend,
eager for the moment when today touches tomorrow
but your promises vanishes just like our miserable ambitions
you'll become yesterday's memories and tomorrow's hope all over again

I'm a man with an empty today waiting for a new tomorrow
I feel estranged starting from the bottom
pretending since yesterday that I’m not missing you

exploring cavities in my life
somethings replaces others
achievements are grounded
destinations become a challenge,
even faith lost interest in me pretending
it was something without you
and without you pretending is empty

some said I was too rough
sharing my head with loaded silence
the presence of silence is waiting
to fulfill its emptiness...

and leaving is a constant problem
you see, Every blood drip comes from a vein
Every bird homes back to a nest
Babies are detached from wombs
& God can be traced through human tears
Everything has an origin

From where I was leaving to arriving
it's all a trip within you
every me starts and ends with you
I have no option but to pretend

a glimpse of light emits speckles of a new notion
a fact that I can not see you as a friend
but navigating to you announcing a half-hearted confession
a devious plan that, for now,
for now, I've adopted a simple plan like the fools before me
I'll risk surviving the minefields
I'll risk being a hypocrite
I'll pretend to be your friend
it's all about pretending
I just wish to kill the glow in my eyes when I see you
it gives me away, but I'll pretend somehow 345
I'll pretend
I'll pretend I'm a pretender

I'll pretend
I'll pretend I'm a pretender
===
lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: cursed by exilian
====
Sep 10, 2022

Location: 423 2nd Ave, New York, NY 10010, USA

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