impure intentions

 impure intentions

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I’ve done it today
I’ve raised my arms to the sky
the lord stalled and wouldn’t let me forget  
& The devil laughed & wouldn’t let it go
one offered hope and the other offered fairies
i was crushed in this miserable dilemma

awaking from sleeping decades
somewhat naked & dead  
counting lost years, some were given,
some were used up, but mostly taken

so i huddle with my back-stabbing frenemies
i can't afford to lose that side of human nature
true friends of the dark side they are  
excuse my intentions for being so impure

i glossed through flaming screenshots recovering my soul
probing a crazy genie witchcraft-er
reason my sanity and praise sensations
I'd love to extract moisture and more
I'm in sour dire

my lord,
i worship your highness  
and i have sinful emotions  
in this blackened heart to experience  
before i tidy my notions  

i need to witness darkness before light  
sadness before laughter  
madness before forgiveness  
excuse my intentions for being so impure

stretching out my mind debunking theories
locating a spare locket of time tucked in a corner
for one last trip back down memory lane
where it all went wrong

i wanted to go back to when we we're innocent
where you and i played with the second hand of time
you pulling it backwards into the void it came from
wanting to stay careless in the moment
and i pushing it forward to see where tomorrow takes us
i wanted to watch you breathe into womanhood
wanting to build a family tree
but a hiccup in time interfered
laying out costume made dreams as i watched
& you couldn't resist

so you migrated & the crucifying taste of it still lingers
and i dived into those sad saga territories
& showed myself around
taming those old inflections
& i can't be anything but a memory now

so i gift wrapped myself in a poem you liked
and sent it to you shaped as a memorial of me
if you feel anything but sincerity
excuse my intentions for being so impure

but I’ve done what i can today
I’ve raised my arms to the sky
so excuse my intentions for being so impure
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lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: monarch by exilian
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