Memory Clout

memory clout

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I touched my thoughts and my soul caved in
it's a victim on demand for the sake of memories  
I obay the ordinary hate that comes with the territory
granting her A smile for leisure
a touch of empathy 
but how much would she feel
if it means dusting off the layers of years
visiting those childhood days 

I Criss cross the 80 interstate
a trip to the old homestead to lullaby rock town
i played reels of memories scrolling on the windshield
the resurrected cold faces  reflected along the highway
pouring sense into what went wrong

I was hesitant to take me back to yesterday
going back there to the backyard, for closure
where memories accumulated from childhood through graduation

we ran around the block and we ran the clock 
growing up so fast and we played on the swings
drank lemonade under the peach tree, talked about us on the porch
and said our hello's & goodbyes by the front door in the summer 
and through the window in winter to meet another day
but we never spoke about the future, just living the moment

but now i come back   
to realize what i used to be, and what went wrong
why I'm not good enough for her now,
social media took her away little by little 
with shiny lights and trails of promises, 
and now she's become a social butterfly and I'm still grounded 
subscribing, liking  posts and reels 
we used to be so close live face to face, lips to lips 
and now there's a screen between us and the distance is far away
and so are the innocent childhood days fadingwe ran 

so grab memories by the horns and not fear it spoiling
they are tougher than what you think
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memories are a double edge sword 
they can ground you in the past or thrust you into the future
so filter and analyze by moments, words, pain or joy for closure
because it will never leave you, and you have to live with it  
even buried under layers of oncoming years, 
expect it to rise with a slightest hiccup in life  
when you live in a castle full of memory clout
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lyrics & vocals: azdi404
music credit: contemplation by Umberto c 
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