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  Serious games  (new) v2  listen on youtube or here here  --------------   serious games v1 listen on youtube or here I flirted with the space between us releasing my thoughts over you I took a head dive, Expressing my concern Let me whisper to home base you raised the stakes, so i Brushed romance aside fueling the humble side of me smoking your photos like a cigarette Dropping your vices like bad ashes I believe you don’t believe in my serious games I Stained my lungs reciting the oath Stitched up the patience to support my bleeding faith Inflated favoritism for a high ride alongside you still, I believe you don’t believe in me THE WORD HAS SPUN, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? Manipulating RUMOURS FROM THE GRAPEVINE ? I know you've been taunting consequences like a punchline joke    that's how I believe you don’t believe in my serious games. on the stake of your games, I burned my plans I kept my cautions multiplying on standby for a final showdown but Yo...

  Laly free listen on youtube or here v1 or here v2   Laly free Someone asked me once why I dedicate my thoughts and poems to laly . well The answer is simple you haven't seen her through my eyes you see, once she sears her smile into your imagination it's not simple to forget or to let go. to heal my mind, I write down every detail I can purging her from my soul, I imitate the polars of nature , nourishing spring harvesting summer, withering autumn and the dying winter , my one time funeral, or so I thought . but the laws of nature has a repeating flaw cycle, spring comes through,  breathing life into the earth, and those neglected dead seeds comes back kicking with life, i'll never be laly free. summer flourishes over the landscapes of my being the ghost of laly comes back to life again invading the privacy of my dying days bringing me back to life fullfiling the vacency of absence with her beautiful face i'll never be laly free. there are no more losses for me t...

Feed listen on youtube or here Let me watch you the way I want let me trace the root of my sickness I might find a hatch door to hate you Let me hear you whisper a cool breeze numbing my consciousness to sleep. You just love the darkness taking over me so I yield to your phantoms for a night truce, resting these weary inflaming bones, = my imagination accepts instances as they come, I saw a surviving homeless metaphor on the sidewalk from the other side, it recalled its survival & stories of faraway females , reflecting on times, carving words carefully. = disappearing into the night, as city spies , as third guests , walking karmas , blank tales of nobody yet , the blessed boys , the wicked girls hyping the ghost party in downtown Eden waiting to be fed. = In a lawless god's land , nothing's changed. the balance was still there you just possessed both sides tipping one over the other, I'm still searching the damp morning hours for a hatch door to disappear so the...

Laly's Crystallized Smile v2 listen on youtube or here  crystallized smile v1  listen on youtube or here Laly's crystallized smile I believed in sowing the seeds, so I harvested memories Absorbing details of your face & body Of clips, reels, stills, 3D shapes of you If you suddenly disconnect from me And it wasn't me when it happened You walked away, you had no words for goodbye A devious heist of nameless days The outrage of a weakened man I praised the lord through you in grievance Measures of revenge taken in silent prayers I still love the little gap between your two front teeth You still owe me a crystallized smile Scales of forgiveness depends on the weight of the grief So, when will I see you again, short of a smile you owe Why, why are your sweet mouth smiles tight-lipped My need traces back to a banished, pitied soul Hurt is packed by the dozens Some spares of hate, two pills to be exact I need to see the little gap between your two front teeth It's ...

 Someone listen on youtube or here Someone Someone came to me I was tired of attending today Someone whispered to me I have years to go without you Someone looked at me confronting my fears Someone reminded me of your name that's why your presence still lingers on Someone touched me, a proxy from you But time recoils & bounces, it never erases, just flexible. Someone held me, it had your signature squeeze Captivating me Someone let me go as you usually do You had all of me still & faces chased all hope for longing It’s another day for passersby to share what i already know I see someone coming to me my kind of scene all over again Let’s begin with you You had all of me in every one that came to me They were your angel’s hands holding sanity process in check I’ll hold on just to say i held you once For the sake of the euphoria Of seeing you again Someone will find my body floating In the muddy waters at wave break At the daily rit...

Straining listen on youtube or here straining on the first day of spring , bury me with all your doll parts for rehab down in a hole to shame with the burden of the lust of my ungrateful twin the ugly side of me, so here's a thank you for the glance you gave me the snub that followed a point you concluded. I'll follow you as an idol, if I had nothing on my back if not for ugly, the ugly in me somewhere the best is yet to come so let me linger, to sharpen the thorn in my side, I punish myself for a slate new day, after darkness leaves me stripped it might not quite be the way out but under celebrity skin as my cover I might get some leniency. I'll tear under the warning sirens on a bed of roses I conduct myself to crawl when you're around with the thorn thrust to my side until you hear me so let me slide over to watch you witness the wind of change watch you breath in my face. there's nothing better for me in life than to make me be...

 prelude listen on youtube or here There's a prelude for a song in my head I need to write for you chanel and a ration of purity helps. my pain differs, I'm pacified, so disclose some flawless mistakes, inspire me with the ones that stuck on you, a couple of days' worth to soften the aged words out of the womb of my head in a dyslexia order , just like my thoughts. = moments from life stand still stranded a bit longer waiting for that portrait snapshot to amplify everything I imagined, Poses I have yet to see from you. memory's at a mundane distance germinating into bad company. all the crazy images I received, none looked or spoke like you. = the things that could've been. all the usual evaded hints, catching sour stones out of crooked mouths thrown at you reviving old reels, It would've been just you, me & a prelude. but all this was just an overture for the emotions that just arrived at the end of this poem But a song is coming home to you. What you hea...

Burn your name listen on youtube or here elcee How do you feel? A mutiny against you, the holy? changing the narrative redeeming myself burning the letters Rebuffed traps of aliases in your name sailed away to another shore now I'm burning you for comfort; I'm burning your name. = as a last-ditch, I came to you staggering, I left an angry wrecking ball when I showed you my plan The haunting starts as you sleep when the effect of your lies lightens, a triangle of sadness , you, me & your name. = do you remember the day the charming tip of your tongue, smudged red graffiti on the cobblestone sidewalks of my modest life,? corrupted in the name of giving butter & honey, those flavored memories & what comes with them chilled the spines of angels and demons. = you were a blessing, high, gradually sloped into a burden I scratched the night walls to hear me, patches of the blues guitars  whining no longer appealed and the tapping's of the piano no longer comforted w...

 dead & gone listen on youtube or here ashes to ashes dust to dust everything you touch burns everything is dead and gone. = everything you touch burns I've forsaken my soul ashes to ashes dust to dust to be dead and gone. I regret what I know shadowy guesses taking chances knowing you at the edge of 25 I was had at hello pieces of addicted dreams I punish under my skin I inject your face into my veins an epiphany breakaway songs migrating towns tearing down fences building walls in a grudge on its way out to seek you and like my slurred figures of speech switched before birth a case of nostalgia blues four decks deep....   voices roll out slow too old to flow, just like me to lock in your glimmer my future suffers following your path it took a callous heart to break a solid core, in the forgotten futile battles you've broken all my flags, the star of David , the cross of Jesus , & the crescent of Muhummed along with the flags of the infidels tales of the uncanny h...

 derailed listen on youtube or here I find you every woman's feature the jesters we traded bred intimacy , we reciprocate other's sins, begetting our own gravity abiding by what takes us passively sleeping in the sandbox of doubt next to the diluted innocence affected by hype   where the rivers of your love derail short of my veins graceful lips smile   kissing the marble cornerstone of your temple from the cold halls of the soul, you still show me what they say is true   that love masquerades around midnight . we all pray the same   but answers come back differently and our love flows around haphazardly in thirst, like misguided teenage infidel spirits; I linger;  I inhale what I can,   the aroma of your bed sweat, in mysteries, we click   in reality, we bore   in blasphemy , we eager   in matrimony , we lie, all in all, the extended truth is never enough   with its never-ending flow blindly following gravity. but around midni...

Have Some listen on youtube or here have some come & Grace my presence for a moment to be a sacred one here, have a sip of Hennessy I don't drink, I'll wait to nurse on your lips, for some aftertaste. =. here, have a pull on this, I don't inhale, I'll wait till you exhale, some second-hand smoke. come here can i tell you a little something for a conversation starter dreams are just overblown personal movies mines were never made, they're still in the scouting phase and you look like the star i'm looking for Touch me where you want I don't want your body, for now, I'll wait for your heart to beat "me." first = talk to me as you would in a ceremony, or a eulogy , I don't talk back, I'm an apprentice listener. speak to me as an assembly of one hold me as a new breed my fascination's overdue, resistance gauges reads empty, so do me as you, please. = The ego in my hands expiring for a selfie it's the afterthough...

my own mecca v1 listen on youtube or here My Own Mecca (new version 2) lyrics below     Laly Laly let me tell you how it all began I was facing Mecca on a daily submission But in me, odds allied Servitude and ambition Were longing for a place where you were A rebellion city rooting for a muse My demigoddess on earth you Embracing the tainted calls of your ego I called on sourly I etched your name being what I am I burst into the resurrection phase A slate sheet of devotion And I emptied myself recklessly My corrupted faith gave me away There is no place for satan here It's just pure me The holy wept muddy tears The unholy joyed my infidelity What a savage salvation I refused to sear my kisses with the poly A small step for the masses My celibacy is exclusive to you mono A giant step for humankind If only God had taught me to hate you better Have I mistakenly understood to love others like thy selves? Have I misunderstood that? I just gave you a little more than I can handle...