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  Blindfolded v2 listen on youtub e or here Blindfolded v1 listen on youtube or here I haven’t seen anything since blindfolded by your gaze Just the new land you imagined for me, for myself Pastures of green alphabets to graze from to form poems and send back to you Mirrored rivers to reflect with = The golden disc in the sky beating down mildly massaging my thoughts, draining them out of me, I’m restrained from leaving them in my head. = Cream of the crop, you harvest Recyclable filtered thoughts are for me Loving you was my fault, & Hating myself was yours I haven’t seen anything since blindfolded by your gaze = I haven’t seen anything since blindfolded by your gaze Just the new land you imagined for me, I've searched in you for what’s missing in me I have come to believe you possess some of my needs It was all an illusion that I wanted everything All I wanted was your heart To see what it’s like beyond the tunnel of mortality to see and feel what's beyond t...

Days of Tel Aviv listen on youtube or here   Step away from those tired eyes, I told myself, The mood's extinct for me tonight, and I feel the pain I feel her pain for being away The flame is bursting for a place she's longing for, in the days in tel aviv restless, tracing the footsteps of destructive echo’s, finding that life uncovers wounds every now and then, covert lashes breeze from the past shredded stories of Judea and Samaria into adaptations and how hearts & bones of men built glory days, Such pride & joy in the homeland of Israel a long distance away, I stay still, observing what she longs for & what I can grant tracing a naked exodus from far history, Upheld pillars of faith fortified the land in peace In the old city , people pray with words, stick,s and bones How gloomy are the fingers of history. I hold still for the air to pause for enough space for her to exhale Sending devotions to the promised land Such a deluxe to be in T...

  unripened dreams v2 listen on youtube or here   unripened dreams v1 listen on youtube or here In my place, where you call it home  I'm Tending trapped in premature dreams Harvested early from your fields They're still nailed to bent walls, waiting to ripen  Waiting for sun, rain & a blessing from you I let you peek into them if you could decipher my thoughts  Before the clock hands convert to digital Accepting the discord without the fact When the casting takes place  We switch role-playing I'll be the useless signing off draft dreams  I sold copies of portraits in your sleeping moments   In its colorless phase Time lies beside me, Comfortably num,b out of sync Sugarcoating my self-esteem about my betrayal I thought you were still around But all I found were  Unripened photos nailed to the wall Under the canopy of bed sheets, A silhouette of you But wait, wait Everything is paused around me And I’m waiting for the un...

cooler dead v2 listen on youtube or here   cooler dead v1 listen on youtube or here Cooler dead Being with you grasped me like a drug addiction Now the memories supply my fix like methadone Being with you grasped me like a drug addiction Now the memories supply my fix like methadone Pimping me out, eyes wide shut Avoiding the end that I see coming Suppressing me not to wake up Not to feel the loss of novelty vows The scene of you running away is still vivid Abducting the yearnings of my sincerity along It placed me in a coffin called Earth In a waiting room until I'm called Just waiting for my body to cease So I fumble with the little I have left Recycling little organic "could've been" moments Feeding breadcrumbs to the universe Disintegrating back into space To where you abruptly ran away to But you're coming back to me now It took so much to let you go And solitude was my ally My heart's too disfigured to know you now But you had that "com...

day-old orphan listen on youtube or here   Day-old orphan Embrace me until the darkness walks away Cradle me like a day-old orphan Take me to a state of trust Release me when I'm asleep To wake up as I'm saved from a nightmare But now I'm tethered to you & you're gone I'm bound to find you not to thank you But to give me to you I'll follow the Imprints of your shadows that float around me I'll follow legacies and rumors Guiding me to the Sea of Galilee A sea of breathing pixels Uncertain of your next tide And when I find you Embrace me until the darkness walks away Cradle me like a day-old orphan I'll hold a candle to the guiding shadows to warm my reflection To draw a map of my face on the sand Retracing your footprint at the edge Until you feel like saving someone Until you miss this orphan Until you get back to land I'll guide you through the last swimming strokes To come and take me away and embrace me in the sea From the demons of lo...

  black listen on youtube or here   Retreading dispensed words roamed behind thick notions from you   accumulates into dark clouds hitting me like dark guilty rain...  = Thirsted grounds embrace it  Waiting for my return to quench exhaustion Then I blame the echoes that are scraping me, hanging me, suspended by my secrets, Like your smooth innuendos that end the age of innocence So complicated yet so clear = taste the skin on my tongue I hate to feel that I'm so behind   sorting personalized shadows you left deep behind in me  With my weakness stretched thin  to judge which of you has hurt me = Nothing but the naked trees of winter suffering from insomnia like me The blanket of the morning light overextended its welcome  The tick-tock of the clock, out of sync in the blank, just like me = Here I am, dicing your name into letters   dissecting your photograph into pixels   wondering why ...

  dying sequence listen on youtube or here  In this dying sequence, it's time I start writing the end This is becoming the end, and feelings for you are dying All the things I touch dissolve, and your face is fading slowly How many times I told you to come and save this thinning = One more night isn’t saving it Two more kisses aren’t enough Three more words aren’t stopping the hemorrhage in my heart, Baby love There’s just too much pretending going on, for it to work like it is supposed to. = We’ve deceived the silver lining enough. We don’t shine in those moments like we used to Do you have something else in mind? = Call it by name Or shall I say, call them by name Where are all those mighty men that dreamt about you? that promised you & that you promised yourself? Where are all your dreams flowing now? trading in what you have for what you want? = While I have everything you need, as sacraments expire. This is becoming the end in this strange dying sequen...

stone cold maria v2 listen on youtube or here   stone cold maria v1 listen on youtube or here Sweet Maria, let me tell you about my thoughts on that night & why you caught me gazing into the void I lay here stone cold, numb.....  on a makeshift bed, naked in my skin, my most suitable attire,  & you straddling my chest, Your touch paralyzing me as a straitjacket ,      questioning my wasted years without you,   = a mirror reflecting me from the ceiling,   counting my eyelids shuddering for every day missed,  from the tightening grip of your mouth on my lips,   never to entirely kill me or to let me live in peace.   = It's not dying that I fear,   It's seeing the expression on your face  When I take my last breath, is it sorrow or a goodbye = Waiting for you to know that   To be assertive is to be more merciful,   like the day you drove your beau...