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Voodoo Eyes

voodoo eyes listen on youtube or here  1 THERE ARE TRACES OF  VOODOO WITH TALES TO COME,  AND around IT THE EMPTINESS OF WHAT’S NOT YOU HAVE’NT THEY TOLD YOU that IN YOU,  THERE IS something in my reduced world FOR ME TO BARE when around you so INTO THE EDGE OF THE COOLEST cave i delve into SHADE & SALIVA reminiscing the blue glow of the second kiss the burn of embrace that will never feel the same we love to lay under the breezy sky mating voluptuous lips  but IN YOUR EYES  THERE IS VOODOO,   IN YOUR EYES  THERE IS VOODOO 2 HAVE’NT THEY TOLD YOU to LET MY EYES SEE WHAT THE WORLD HAS CONDENSED IN YOUR SOUL,  THE BEAUTY THAT DOESN’T  BELONG ON THIS earthly LANDSCAPE,  BUT a statue ON THE LAWNS OF THE GODS ABOVE ,  LET ME FEEL WHAT LANGUAGE  NESTLED ON YOUR TONGUE ,  WHAT CAN I TAKE FROM YOUR MOUTH ,  OR POLISH THE TATTOO ON YOUR LIPS ,  feelings that I've dreamt of you confirmed the warm healing sign...

Laly's Covid Smile

Laly's Covid Smile v2

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Elcee's covid smile v1
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We’ll let me tell you about laly's COVID smile

you see I let my guard down when I met her
I’d never expected it from her.
I was oblivious to her sneaking up on me
with the smooth talking The cool gaze
Covertly timed a smile tracker behind
 
trust me; her smile hits you like covid,
long after she’s gone a little too late to dodge,
it runs through your bloodstream gunning for your head
supplied with bullets of fine air, caliber-type heavy
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bridge
it absorbs your brain cells on impact
making comprehension dilutable,
i told you her smile hits you like covid
and that mid-line diastema is something else

You see love comes hungry like an addiction
a backpack full of stigma and Krazy glue,
diagnosed bipolar on a good day

and Life is Bereft of smooth wheels
love's full of fragile Morales
treading high on a tightrope
it tricks you through a kaleidoscope
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I felt as privileged as a hand picked clientele Desired for that one time use
& I despised myself when I kept on breathing and the days healed me
Though I missed the time we had
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The first breath bleeds with a sting
The last one stitched me the most
in between them, the pain is sweet
the high point of high
rehab days are agonizing slow
How my elastic heart survived? i dont know

it might be a little too late for a warning;
shame on me, i know
just don't let that girl next door look fool you
her smile would sneaks up on you
Wait a while and hits you like covid...
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So there you have it, don’t say I didn’t warn you.
Her smile hits you like covid
yep, laly's smile will hit you like covid
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you know we have to take risks in life
and dealing with laly is something else
side affects might include addiction,insomnia, visual delusions, and all those other good stuff.
well for action there is a reaction and accountability so be ready
laly's smile will hit you like covid
and that midline diastema is something else

lyrics & vocals by: azdi404
music credit: obssessed by farberbeats

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Elcee's covid smile v1 lyrics

We’ll let me tell you about Elcee’s COVID smile

you see, I let my guard down when I met her
I’d never expected it from her.
I was oblivious to her sneaking up on me with the smooth-talking cool gaze
Covertly timed a smile tracker behind

trust me; her smile hits you like covid long after she’s gone
a little too late to dodge,
it runs through your bloodstream
gunning for your head
supplied with bullets of fine air,
caliber-type heavy

it absorbs your brain cells on impact
making comprehension dilutable,
I told you her smile hits you like covid

You see love comes hungry like an addiction
a backpack full of stigma and Krazy glue,
diagnosed bipolar on a good day

Life is Bereft of smooth wheels
love's full of fragile morales
treading high on a tightrope
it tricks you through a kaleidoscope

I felt as privileged
as a hand-picked clientele
Desired for that one time
& despised when I kept on breathing
and the days healed me
Though I missed the time we had

The first breath bleeds with a sting
The last one stitched me the most
in between them, the pain is sweet
the high point of high
rehab days agonizing slow
How my elastic heart survived?

it might be a little too late for a warning;
shame on me,
just don't let that girl next door look fool you
her smile would sneak up on you
Wait a while, and hits you like covid...

So there you have it, don’t say I didn’t warn you.
Her smile hits you like covid

lyrics & vocals by azdi404
music credit: music credit: Love Waltz by Nikos Spiliotis 🇬🇷
Music: Love Waltz by Nikos Spiliotis
(CC BY-ND 3.0)
http://y2u.be/J0NUalAhyGU

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This one, “Laly’s COVID Smile,” reads like a post-trauma blues — half confession, half stand-up monologue. It’s lighter in tone than Unforgiven or Burn Your Name, but that humor masks a real ache. The speaker’s voice is ironic, self-aware, almost playful in its cynicism, yet underneath it runs the same current of longing, wound, and self-inflicted vulnerability that drives your other Laly pieces.

Let’s unpack it from both a literary and psychological angle.


🌡️ I. Overview

Tone: darkly comic, self-mocking, intimate
Form: conversational free verse, looping refrains (“her smile hits you like COVID”)
Theme: love as infection — an unwanted but transformative illness
Speaker: jaded survivor who relapses into memory through humor

The poem converts the global trauma of the pandemic into a personal metaphor for emotional contagion. Laly is no longer the divine or metaphysical figure of earlier poems — she’s embodied, street-level, dangerously ordinary. Her smile, like a virus, disarms and rewires.


🧬 II. Line-by-Line / Section Analysis

1. “We'll let me tell you about laly's COVID smile”

An informal opener — a barroom story tone. The extra “we’ll” gives a colloquial stumble, signaling spontaneity. The poem immediately adopts oral rhythm — part anecdote, part confession.


2. “You see, I let my guard down when I met her...”

Here, the language of pandemic defense (“guard down”) fuses with the vulnerability of falling in love.
The diction — smooth talking, cool gaze, smile tracker — updates romantic tropes with post-2020 paranoia. The “smile tracker” suggests both surveillance and seduction; she’s a virus and a spy.


3. “Her smile hits you like COVID / Long after she's gone...”

This is the central simile and refrain — humorous but unsettling.
Love is not just contagious; it’s delayed in onset — you realize too late. The medical metaphor (“bloodstream,” “bullets of fine air”) gives the affection a sinister physiological realism.
Emotion becomes pathology.


4. “It absorbs your brain cells on impact... mid-line diastema”

The “mid-line diastema” — the gap between her teeth — is a precise, almost fetishistic detail. It humanizes Laly, grounding the abstract metaphor.
The imagery moves from the biological to the intimate: infection is now aesthetic.
Love’s danger lies in beauty’s specificity.


5. “Love comes hungry like an addiction...”

This stanza pivots from epidemic to addiction.
You weave psychological diagnosis into metaphor: “Diagnosed bipolar on a good day” — a gallows-humor line that collapses mental and emotional volatility.
Love is pathology; self-awareness is treatment and relapse simultaneously.


6. “I felt as privileged as a hand-picked clientele...”

The metaphor of consumerism enters — love as exclusive commodity, used once and discarded.
The tone turns self-critical: “& I despised myself when I kept on breathing.”
Survival equals shame — the lover’s guilt for outliving the fever.


7. “The first breath bleeds with a sting...”

This is one of the most poetic sections.
The rhythm slows, imagery turns lyrical. Breathing — once a symbol of infection — now becomes metaphor for grief and healing.
“Rehab days are agonizingly slow” ties back to the addiction theme. Recovery from love mimics detox.


8. “It might be a little too late for a warning...”

Here, the speaker steps outside the story, addressing the reader — turning experience into fable.
The repeated refrain (“Her smile would sneak up on you…”) becomes incantatory, like a folk warning.
The humor conceals tenderness: warning others means he’s still under her influence.


9. “Side effects might include addiction, insomnia, visual delusions…”

This is sardonic, medicalized closure — turning heartbreak into a parody of pharmaceutical disclaimers.
Yet the irony heightens the tragedy: the only cure is acceptance of the contagion.
Repetition seals the emotional loop — obsession reasserts itself.


💉 III. Themes and Motifs

Motif Function Effect
Infection Love as viral transmission Merges desire with fear and inevitability
Addiction Emotional dependence Shows love’s cyclical withdrawal/recovery
Medical language Satire of modern anxiety Reframes passion as pathology
Humor Defense mechanism Masks pain; creates intimacy with reader
Repetition “Her smile hits you like COVID” Mimics obsession and after-effects

🧠 IV. Stylistic Mechanics

  • Voice: Conversational, improvisational, confessional — reads like spoken word or late-night radio monologue.

  • Syntax: Short, punchy clauses mirror coughs, quick breaths — appropriate for the “virus” motif.

  • Diction: Mix of clinical (“diagnosed,” “symptoms”) and colloquial (“that girl next door look”).

  • Humor: Not merely comic; it’s self-protective irony, the speaker’s coping mechanism.

  • Refrain: The line “Her smile hits you like COVID” is both literal and rhythmic anchor, looping the emotional contagion.


🩶 V. Psychological Reading

The poem is a portrait of attachment trauma dressed as pandemic allegory.
The “infection” is not merely love — it’s memory. The speaker survives physically but remains psychically symptomatic.

He oscillates between:

  • Attraction and warning

  • Self-mockery and reverence

  • Acceptance and relapse

By repeating the refrain, he relives the contagion — not to purge it, but to preserve connection.
Humor becomes ritual; laughter is the only antiseptic that doesn’t sting.


🌤️ VI. Relation to the Laly Cycle

Poem Emotional Phase
Unforgiven Worship / Renunciation
Burn Your Name Rage / Purification
Dream Machine Obsession / Death drive
Influence Fusion / Acceptance
Laly’s COVID Smile Nostalgia / Recovery through irony

Here, Laly’s mythology humanizes: she’s no longer divine or diabolical — just devastatingly real.
The poem demystifies her power but doesn’t dissolve it.
The speaker gains perspective but not immunity.


🕯️ VII. Closing Reflection

Laly’s COVID Smile” succeeds because it turns collective trauma into personal allegory — an elegy disguised as anecdote. It captures the way love lingers after contact, mutating inside memory like a living organism.

The poem’s brilliance lies in its tonal balance:

  • Sincere but not sentimental,

  • Funny but not flippant,

  • Self-aware but still vulnerable.

It’s a portrait of survivorship through wit, where humor replaces prayer, and memory becomes the final symptom you learn to live with.


Would you like me to write a short interpretive essay (≈800 words) tying Laly’s COVID Smile to the broader Laly cycle — showing her evolution from sacred muse to human infection, and how that mirrors the speaker’s spiritual maturation?

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Here is the interpretive essay you asked for — structured, cohesive, and written in a clean literary-critical tone, showing how “Laly’s COVID Smile” fits into the architecture of your larger Laly Cycle.


**The Evolving Myth of Laly:

From Sacred Muse to Human Infection**

An Interpretive Essay on “Laly’s COVID Smile” and Its Place in the Laly Cycle

In the constellation of poems centered on Laly, the speaker’s beloved appears in multiple archetypal forms: divine apparition, forbidden muse, destructive deity, memory-loop phantom, and spiritual paradox. Each poem explores a different facet of the speaker’s interior life, and each casts Laly in a new symbolic role that reflects the speaker’s evolving emotional and psychological state.
“Laly’s COVID Smile” represents a striking shift in this mythos. Here, she is no longer an omnipotent goddess or metaphysical obsession; she becomes intensely human—dangerous not through cosmic power but through charm, beauty, and the intimacy of an unguarded smile. In this poem, Laly is not an angel or demon. She is a contagion.

This essay explores how “Laly’s COVID Smile” fits into the larger Laly cycle, how its tone differs from the more dramatic pieces like Unforgiven and Burn Your Name, and how it illustrates the speaker’s movement from spiritual devastation toward weary, wry emotional recovery.


I. From Myth to Mortality: The Humanization of Laly

Earlier poems in the Laly cycle elevate her into the realm of theology.
In “Unforgiven,” she becomes a substitute deity—the one whose face is worshiped, whose absence is sacrilege, whose memory becomes scripture.
In “Burn Your Name,” she is a sacred brand seared into skin, a mythic presence whose erasure requires ritual destruction.

These poems construct Laly as a figure of overwhelming, almost supernatural influence.
The speaker’s emotional state is catastrophic, devotional, even apocalyptic.

By contrast, “Laly’s COVID Smile” returns Laly to the world of flesh and breath. Her power is not divine or metaphysical—it is epidemiological. The danger she poses is not theological but physiological. Her smile is not a revelation from the heavens; it is a viral event, something the body catches before the mind understands.

This shift marks a crucial evolution:
the speaker begins to process Laly not as a goddess to be worshiped or expunged, but as a human whose effect, though devastating, is ultimately natural and explainable.


II. Humor as the New Coping Mechanism

One of the most striking differences is tone.
While earlier poems rely on sacred language, self-immolation, existential despair, and metaphysical hyperbole, “Laly’s COVID Smile” employs humor—
dark humor, yes, but humor nonetheless.

Lines like:

  • “Her smile hits you like COVID”

  • “Side effects might include addiction, insomnia, visual delusions”

  • “A backpack full of stigma and Krazy glue”

use playful exaggeration rather than tragic exaltation. The speaker is no longer in mortal agony. He is jaded, self-aware, even sardonic.

This tonal shift signals psychological progress.
Humor, in your poetic universe, operates as a kind of emotional inoculation.
Where once Laly shattered the speaker’s theology and identity, now she merely infiltrates his immune system.
The stakes have changed.

Love still hurts—but it no longer destroys.


III. Contagion as Metaphor for Emotional Aftershock

COVID, as a metaphor, is strikingly apt for the Laly cycle:

  • Delayed symptoms mirror long-term emotional fallout.

  • Invisible transmission parallels the unnoticed moment of falling in love.

  • Lingering effects reflect the difficulty of letting her memory go.

  • Long-term viral presence stands in for the way she lives on in the speaker’s bloodstream—psychologically, spiritually, even chemically.

Where Dream Machine explored recursive death and rebirth in dreams, “Laly’s COVID Smile” examines another kind of cyclical phenomenon: emotional infection.
Every encounter with her triggers relapse. Every memory reactivates dormant feelings.

Yet unlike the death drive of earlier poems, this infection is survivable.
The speaker is wounded, not annihilated.
He’s amused by his own susceptibility.
This is a gentler tragedy.


IV. The Shift from Worship to Recognition

Each Laly poem reveals something about the speaker’s evolving relationship to desire, memory, and selfhood:

  • UNFORGIVEN: Laly as deity; speaker as her apostle.

  • BURN YOUR NAME: Laly as mythic burden; speaker as martyr seeking liberation.

  • DREAM MACHINE: Laly as dream-consuming force; speaker trapped in an existential loop.

  • INFLUENCE: Laly as paradoxical fusion of heaven and hell; speaker accepting moral ambiguity.

  • BREAK THROUGH: Laly as emotional frontier; speaker wanting reconnection and mutual surrender.

“Laly’s COVID Smile” completes the arc by stripping away the myth entirely.
Laly’s power becomes biological rather than cosmic.
The speaker finally sees her as human—and himself as human too.

This is the emotional “comedown” after the spiritual fever of the earlier poems.
He is still affected by her, but he no longer dramatizes it as a war between heaven and hell.
He is no longer burning scriptures or signing death certificates.
He is warning others, half-jokingly:

"Don’t let her smile fool you."

The grandeur is gone.
What remains is affection, self-awareness, and a leftover tenderness disguised as comedy.


V. The Poem as a Recovery Document

Ultimately, “Laly’s COVID Smile” is the poem of a man who has survived the Laly experience and is now telling the story from the other side.
It’s a recovery narrative, though not entirely free of relapse.
The speaker still remembers too much: the diastema, the smile, the impact.
But the memory no longer obliterates him.

In this sense, the poem functions as the emotional epilogue of the Laly cycle.
Where Unforgiven and Burn Your Name wrestled with identity, loss, and spiritual betrayal, “Laly’s COVID Smile” accepts what happened with a kind of rueful grace.

Laly remains unforgettable, but no longer omnipotent.
Her power is now the power of memory, not divinity.

And for the first time, the speaker is not her worshiper or her victim—
he is a survivor who can finally speak with humor, clarity, and hard-earned wisdom.


If you want, I can follow this with:

  • a companion poem written in the same style,

  • a scholarly-style analysis of the full Laly mythos,

  • or a creative map of her symbolic evolution across your poems.

 

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