Validate

Validate

 

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This life is for me

My innocence was a blank page, untested

My life? a collection of repetitive mundane days before I met you

Your presence tells it all, dictating the pace

scratching a signature, Validating my worth

Divine Pretending Untouchable, All and nothing you are,

everything in my privacy

nothing outside that realm to feel the moment

Elevate me to level high

Just to hear me crash my organic being

It's all right, I'm also tired of perserving myself

Emotion free without you

It's hard to know if something was wrong

Until I crashed into you

Until I crashed into you in a 5 second nap

I caught you in a dream

I felt the pressure of your teeth ripping my lips

As I grooved to the sounds of you breathing

exerting the fear of failure out of me

sinking to the game you played to make me feel alive

I bled the distance between your lips and navel

a trip seared into memory, theres no coming back from

no undoing

I feel so symbolic, and I'm comfortably numb

so let's have a toast

salivate in my cup

restrain the angel side of you

unleash the soft beast of you on me

I crave the damage you bring

I crave the damage you bring 

 

so if you plan to come on to me, find me, rip me apart

make this sacrifice vicious, memorable,

decree me a poster child

I want to feel my identity,

refine the diamond in me

i have nothing left but myself standing here idling

wondering if i am at  peace or war or to be disposed of

I don't want to feel pity by anyone

I'm tired of being vague

so find me inside me & validate me.

find me and validate me to be with you

validate me tonight

and the details will work itself out

so validate me one more time

validate me, i feel so alive

just one more time

validate me

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lyrics & vocals: azdi404

music credit: fracture by Exilian

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This poem, “Validate,” reads as a fevered monologue of desire and dependency — a cry for affirmation that intertwines eroticism, vulnerability, and existential searching. Where Creation explored the godlike act of making another being, Validate shifts inward: it becomes the plea of a self yearning to be seen, touched, and made real through intimacy.

Below is a detailed analysis of the poem’s meaning, structure, and literary texture.

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I. The Core Theme: Validation as Salvation

At its essence, “Validate” is about the human hunger for recognition — the need for another person’s gaze, touch, or love to confirm one’s own existence. The refrain “Validate me” functions like both a prayer and a demand. It is not simply romantic longing; it’s ontological — the speaker’s sense of being depends on another’s acknowledgment.

The opening lines immediately establish this tone:

“This life is for me
My innocence was a blank page, untested
My life? a collection of repetitive mundane days before I met you”

The image of “a blank page” subtly aligns the self with a written text — identity as something yet to be inscribed, awaiting authorship by another. The speaker’s encounter with “you” becomes the moment of inscription, the act that gives meaning to the emptiness.

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II. Divine and Erotic Duality

Throughout the poem, the beloved oscillates between divine and carnal imagery:

“Divine Pretending Untouchable, All and nothing you are
Everything in my privacy”

and later,

“Unleash the soft beast of you on me
I crave the damage you bring”

The juxtaposition of divinity (“Divine Pretending Untouchable”) and bestiality (“soft beast”) embodies the sacred-profane paradox of passion — love as both salvation and destruction. This echoes mystic literature (e.g., St. Teresa’s ecstasies) and Romantic poets like Blake, who saw human desire as the intersection of the divine and the infernal.

The use of religious diction — “Divine,” “angel,” “sacrifice,” “poster child,” “decree” — reimagines intimacy as a kind of worship ritual, where validation takes on a sacramental quality. The “sacrifice” becomes both physical and spiritual: a surrender of the self to another’s power.

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III. Imagery of Impact and Destruction

The recurring motif of crashing is crucial:

“Until I crashed into you”
“Elevate me to level high / Just to hear me crash my organic being”

Here, emotional awakening is depicted through violent collision — the self shattered to feel alive. This recalls the Romantic trope of the sublime: the idea that transcendence often comes through destruction or loss of control.

The tactile imagery intensifies this theme:

“I felt the pressure of your teeth ripping my lips
As I grooved to the sounds of you breathing”

Pain becomes a form of proof — physical evidence of existence, of emotional truth. The lover’s bite and breath validate the speaker’s presence in a way that abstract affirmation cannot. This blurring of pleasure and pain aligns with symbolist and postmodern erotic poetics (think of Sylvia Plath’s “Fever 103°” or Anne Sexton’s “The Ballad of the Lonely Masturbator”).

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IV. Identity and the Self in Fragments

By the middle stanzas, the poem becomes a meditation on selfhood as something unstable and reactive. The speaker’s identity emerges only in the reflection of the other:

“I want to feel my identity
Refine the diamond in me”

The diamond metaphor — hard, pure, yet born under pressure — encapsulates the paradox of validation: pain and conflict polish the self into clarity. Yet there’s also an implicit critique here — the speaker cannot self-define without external validation, suggesting an ongoing dependency.

“I have nothing left but myself standing here idling
Wondering if I am at peace or war or to be disposed of”

This line is chilling in its ambiguity — it portrays the aftermath of ecstasy, when selfhood collapses into uncertainty. The triad peace / war / disposed of evokes existential limbo — the speaker no longer knows whether they’ve been healed, destroyed, or simply abandoned.

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V. Tone and Emotional Progression

The emotional trajectory of “Validate” moves from boredom → awakening → collision → dependence → numbness.
This mirrors the psychological stages of obsessive love or addiction — the poem itself feels cyclical, as if trapped in the repetition of “Validate me one more time.”

Repetition here functions like an incantation: the phrase loses meaning through overuse yet gains emotional power. The final stanza’s refrain —

“Validate me tonight…
Just one more time
Validate me”

— echoes the structure of addiction and prayer alike. The speaker is both pleading and relapsing, aware of the futility but unable to stop.

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VI. Stylistic and Structural Notes

Device	Example	Effect
Repetition	“Validate me”	Reinforces dependency and emotional urgency.
Imagery	“Pressure of your teeth ripping my lips”	Blends sensuality and violence, symbolizing love as destructive awakening.
Contrast	“Divine… soft beast”	Highlights duality of spiritual and carnal love.
Metaphor	“Blank page,” “diamond in me”	Identity as something to be written or refined through suffering.
Diction	“Decree,” “sacrifice,” “poster child”	Suggests religious ritual and martyrdom.
Ambiguity	“Peace or war or to be disposed of”	Conveys emotional disorientation after validation fades.

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VII. Intertextual and Cultural Resonances

• Literary: The poem evokes Sylvia Plath, Anne Sexton, and Rainer Maria Rilke, poets who used erotic and spiritual imagery to explore identity and transcendence.

• Philosophical: The plea for validation recalls existentialist ideas — particularly Sartre’s notion that “existence precedes essence” and that selfhood is confirmed through the gaze of the Other.

• Modern Context: In a contemporary digital world where validation often takes the form of social approval or visibility, the poem reads as an allegory for the commodification of intimacy — a deeply human need transformed into endless seeking.

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VIII. Conclusion

“Validate” is an intense, confessional poem that dramatizes the fragile intersection between love, selfhood, and affirmation.
It captures the paradox of human connection: to be validated is to be alive, but that very need can become an addiction that erodes the self it seeks to affirm.

The final repetition —

“Validate me, I feel so alive” —
is both triumphant and tragic: a fleeting resurrection that cannot last, a momentary proof of existence before the silence returns.

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Would you like me to do a comparative analysis of “Validate” and “Creation” — examining how both poems depict the relationship between creation and validation, and how the creator–creation dynamic evolves into a lover–beloved dynamic?