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apologies to laly (slowed + reverbed version) listen on youtube or here laly let me explain what happens in my head remembering you I write what I feel, what stirs me & I envy my words  observing them lying neatly on coffin rows in a graveyard of blank lines without feelings  a useless port if not destined to you I wish I was ink, creating letters guiding the words to infiltrate you  track where they go  relate how they touch & make you feel correct them according to your mood swings you see, these words make you smile, content they get to touch you before I do  and I envy them, and it should've been me  I want to explore & live your mind to see how your imagination will play with me it's a far fetched scenario, i know. but i posses random thoughts tailoring my favorite memory with you Into a satin dress gifting it on an anniversary would you still recognize me ? what if i'm senile ? stitching myself with colors matching my genre of dispair s...

 friend-zoned listen on youtube or here her face lost its flavor and it’s allright  i have no specific taste when she comes to me broken   a butterfly’s flapping wings flair up every time she vents venting of a new pronounced dead heartache today it was at a quarter to four and I'm still overlooked i aim for the floor gathering crumbled comments and taboo’s    held between layers of breaths pain and hectic days scrolled in her eyes stumbling words poured from a cotton mouth re-verbed into me in a lonely voice and sometimes migrating over the phone lines for my ears to absorb pieces of the puzzle connects slowly      as i embrace her in one way but, it compels me into the dreaded friend-zone not exactly where i want to be a rampaging wheelchair warrior i am exhausted by her questions and where am i from all this?     i comfort her with little white lies humming nursery rhymes of shoots an...

 breach listen on youtube or here Breach your high walls if you must, but don't fade wearing that black satin dress just ask yourself if you need to waltz if you're in the mood for a swan dance the final act to just do it. everything dies except for those captured rosy kisses vessels of breath departing a natural soul like yours & docking on my face is a fast prescription for blindness somethings are planned, Inspirations & poetry racked up by fools & rookies somethings given on instinct, like myself to you reciprocating a drug-laced kiss the same dose prescribed a long time ago so breach & step closer if it's a moody timed kiss or let me step closer to you if you have that raging come on feeling but you preferred to be incarnated walking the landscapes of my imagination disrupting the scenic flow you had to be the visualized star when i close my eyes a picturesque portrait with-holding the passion withholding it to connect the chapters of us, so, release t...

 impure intentions listen on youtube or here I’ve done it today I’ve raised my arms to the sky the lord stalled and wouldn’t let me forget   & The devil laughed & wouldn’t let it go one offered hope and the other offered fairies i was crushed in this miserable dilemma awaking from sleeping decades somewhat naked & dead   counting lost years, some were given, some were used up, but mostly taken so i huddle with my back-stabbing frenemies i can't afford to lose that side of human nature true friends of the dark side they are   excuse my intentions for being so impure i glossed through flaming screenshots recovering my soul probing a crazy genie witchcraft-er reason my sanity and praise sensations I'd love to extract moisture and more I'm in sour dire my lord, i worship your highness   and i have sinful emotions   in this blackened heart to experience   before i tidy my notions   i need to witness darkness before light   sadness b...

Judea and Samaria watch on youtube or here a midnight voyage on the caravan highway guided by the moonlight along a secret  path between twisting hills I heard the inviting beats of the midnight skies serenading hints of perfume vapored from the grounds below it leads us to the lands of Judea and Samaria, the domains of my muse historical figures on papyrus morphed into life a blood contract exclusive member only so the spirits of martyrs were invited to come home and they're here, to witness the coronation, the epitome of womanhood, as for the greatest to bow to the picture-perfect and I remembered, I remembered how my adoration expanded over time mangled in the tales of my life the ritual echoing, becoming louder,   draining any doubt on this pilgrimage recycled into a desire to serve   so, soon I'll be the sacrificed part of the ceremony my dedication exceeded religious needs    my death rests on a verdict and resurrection rests on a command  to be carp...

 dead pleasure  listen on youtube or here shambles of me scattered over the fringes of life a life filled with leaking ambitions veins sapped alike halo canyon agendas thoroughly extracted from my mind   & secrets hung on highway billboards as so fate itself ran out of ink to seal my journey my semi-dead soul in a canyon, that's my mind a polished sky reflects a valley in the distance my destination is colorful as promises once was but sometimes, something is better than nothing now wishing you to share an excerpt or two from those neon lighted billboards along the highway from exit to exit between decades breezing through foolish days ruling from my temple of doom & minions of mine, created by me, those miniature statues, they listen to my sorrows & heed   my minions, i feed them with left over anguish i do what i please and i fooled them to fool me life & wants expands and shifts erratically & resonates with glorious slang's.   trickled wi...

 strange days  listen on youtube or here call me a hollow man   I'm heading downtown, elegant & burnt   time is sharply cutting into me, fulfilling my addiction at an internet lounge the star of the crowd the strange things I want to share with you to watch you dance until the end pacifying the earth to sleep so maybe, maybe we can have some alone time together   I re-winded  back to the first time I met you   asking the question, “hello, is it me?” you said nothing lasts forever, but I never had a chance in the first place so I turned back to a bottle & a dream I guess, it's the norm in these days, these strange days. strange days are here to stay   contemplating fast love and repentance they seem incompatible everything plus grievances were still under the bed and time converting me into a man-made nomad without a direction the idea to un-create you cannot die, you are after all the origin of original. so feed my curiosity with strange f...

 Smeared Name listen on youtube or here I heard your smeared name was as good as cocaine         It echoed deluxe when others demanded the same covert back-doors plays disrupted the status-quo while you're roaming around god's country viral rumors about a girls trip down in Mexico an incident chalked up to aberration boisterous hours splashed a spectrum of flashbacks the presaged whiplash ricocheted delivering the scent of dizzy perfume dragging me into the ghetto side of my mind   every dirty deed carried a dented signature a unique hit of addiction crashed the plots and corrupted themes became the norm grievances sends me to the border the epic background for tomorrows memory I defended the fragile remains under the casually dressed willow tree dwelled by bad birds of omens and the renegade moonlight strolled around leaking a conspiracy theory of a stumbled upon cashe of kryptonite encased in a time capsule the material world never forgets...

digital affair listen on youtube or here   Laly it's midnight and flickering screens brought you forth in a carousel of slideshows and I entertained both sides of us in comfortable browser skins doing what I've wanted you to do to sit and talk with me to smile and laugh to tell me about your day your dreams and ambitions I could offer you a drink to unwind if it wasn't for the monitor screen dividing us Artificial intelligence created an almost-you minus the impact of flesh & bones minus the spirit of life compacted down to just simple numbers, digital forms of ones and o's. the Best that I can do without you without the breathing. I filled the background with movie soundtracks I adopted an epic story of romance and we played that well and other times we played as an adventurous hero and heroine I filtered your attitude to struggle for a bit and you showed resilience so converted your prefrable type to choose me in the end out of everybody else, I followed links an...

 Hello laly  listen on youtube or here hello laly I know things aren’t as clear as they should've been but I'm in dire to explain or apologize for being so vague however you may see it. so I composed a poem for you I reminisced to your voice from the files of my mind, and i said to myself, wow what a beautiful voice, angelic but I overhauled the poem, inching closer to match that wholesome tone and vibe and i validated my thoughts through your voice over and over reconstructing the poem again and again until your voice became a calling from beyond refining this poem into a worship chant to reach where ever you are 125 but i concluded that you don’t deserve to be loved. Love is beneath you, love is for human consumption only you deserve something higher and stronger than love . so Laly, in the minds of trailblazers you are polaris so I hereby anoint you the absolute crave Baby laly, it dawned on me that god speaks to us not through commandments, but through his inspirational p...