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 Elcee's Birthday listen on youtube or here Unexplainable thoughts I have 9 on this December morning is this day tacked on your calendar? It's been a row of fruitful seasons. subtract one from me for not being around my declining seasons seem mundane = I don't have birth moments like you, just hope & anticipation so I tag on to yours. your Birthday's an epiphany I give it room service A bump up from gravity A blessing you're around albeit opposite ends of coasts. = though the reasons are here In the flesh and bones of you celebrating nothing is out of the ordinary; you do you in Los Angeles, and I am still me, still swaying with what's left of your sweet aura in New York City. What a deserted place on this elevated day dragging out my side, that's stuck in the moments. = It's the time of the season to change, to renew the old, like me The Seasonal winds of change Ripping me away from you drifting parts of me fall like leaves my days slapped around i...

 Elcee's covid smile listen on youtube or here  We’ll let me tell you about Elcee’s COVID smile you see, I let my guard down when I met her I’d never expected it from her. I was oblivious to her sneaking up on me with the smooth-talking cool gaze Covertly timed a smile tracker behind trust me; her smile hits you like covid long after she’s gone a little too late to dodge, it runs through your bloodstream gunning for your head supplied with bullets of fine air, caliber-type heavy it absorbs your brain cells on impact making comprehension dilutable, I told you her smile hits you like covid You see love comes hungry like an addiction a backpack full of stigma and Krazy glue, diagnosed bipolar on a good day Life is Bereft of smooth wheels love's full of fragile morales treading high on a tightrope it tricks you through a kaleidoscope I felt as privileged as a hand-picked clientele Desired for that one time & despised when I kept on breathing and the days healed me Though I mi...

 the Story of Amen Listen on Youtube or here   Dead inside here for 20-something years For being an unbeliever Waiting for a call Struggling for direction Searching my strange aliases Digging into my ancient feelings God is older But god is not helping me I’m all alone down here Amen On the ledge of my pillow Suicidal thoughts About Being Old Past my prime Breaking a chain About being bold daring to find you My savior Amen Chained by my own promises Falling from my grace Losing my crown of thorns Floating to the top Amongst the living To a nameless land Where you live Up above where god exists As they say Because he doesn’t hear me here Maybe up there? I believe Amen I get closer to the center of gravity I hear a laughter I see a smile I feel loneliness I see the light blending eyes assimilates into my world Leading me I’m listening Is it an illusion? But why care? I answer Amen I heard you Calling underneath your breath Shadows have...