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 apologies to laly V4 listen on youtube or here   laly let me explain what happens in my head remembering you I write what I feel, what stirs me & I envy my words  observing them lying neatly on coffin rows in a graveyard of blank lines without feelings  a useless port if not destined to you I wish I was ink, creating letters guiding the words to infiltrate you  track where they go  relate how they touch & make you feel correct them according to your mood swings you see, these words make you smile, content they get to touch you before I do  and I envy them, and it should've been me  I want to explore & live your mind to see how your imagination will play with me but it's a far fetched scenario, i know. but i posses random thoughts tailoring my favorite memory  with you Into a satin dress …. gifting it on an anniversary …   would you still recognize me ?  what if i'm senile ? stitching myself with colors matching my genre...

apologies to laly (slowed + reverbed version) listen on youtube or here laly let me explain what happens in my head remembering you I write what I feel, what stirs me & I envy my words  observing them lying neatly on coffin rows in a graveyard of blank lines without feelings  a useless port if not destined to you I wish I was ink, creating letters guiding the words to infiltrate you  track where they go  relate how they touch & make you feel correct them according to your mood swings you see, these words make you smile, content they get to touch you before I do  and I envy them, and it should've been me  I want to explore & live your mind to see how your imagination will play with me it's a far fetched scenario, i know. but i posses random thoughts tailoring my favorite memory with you Into a satin dress gifting it on an anniversary would you still recognize me ? what if i'm senile ? stitching myself with colors matching my genre of dispair s...

Judea and Samaria watch on youtube or here a midnight voyage on the caravan highway guided by the moonlight along a secret  path between twisting hills I heard the inviting beats of the midnight skies serenading hints of perfume vapored from the grounds below it leads us to the lands of Judea and Samaria, the domains of my muse historical figures on papyrus morphed into life a blood contract exclusive member only so the spirits of martyrs were invited to come home and they're here, to witness the coronation, the epitome of womanhood, as for the greatest to bow to the picture-perfect and I remembered, I remembered how my adoration expanded over time mangled in the tales of my life the ritual echoing, becoming louder,   draining any doubt on this pilgrimage recycled into a desire to serve   so, soon I'll be the sacrificed part of the ceremony my dedication exceeded religious needs    my death rests on a verdict and resurrection rests on a command  to be carp...

 dead pleasure  listen on youtube or here shambles of me scattered over the fringes of life a life filled with leaking ambitions veins sapped alike halo canyon agendas thoroughly extracted from my mind   & secrets hung on highway billboards as so fate itself ran out of ink to seal my journey my semi-dead soul in a canyon, that's my mind a polished sky reflects a valley in the distance my destination is colorful as promises once was but sometimes, something is better than nothing now wishing you to share an excerpt or two from those neon lighted billboards along the highway from exit to exit between decades breezing through foolish days ruling from my temple of doom & minions of mine, created by me, those miniature statues, they listen to my sorrows & heed   my minions, i feed them with left over anguish i do what i please and i fooled them to fool me life & wants expands and shifts erratically & resonates with glorious slang's.   trickled wi...

 Hello laly  listen on youtube or here hello laly I know things aren’t as clear as they should've been but I'm in dire to explain or apologize for being so vague however you may see it. so I composed a poem for you I reminisced to your voice from the files of my mind, and i said to myself, wow what a beautiful voice, angelic but I overhauled the poem, inching closer to match that wholesome tone and vibe and i validated my thoughts through your voice over and over reconstructing the poem again and again until your voice became a calling from beyond refining this poem into a worship chant to reach where ever you are 125 but i concluded that you don’t deserve to be loved. Love is beneath you, love is for human consumption only you deserve something higher and stronger than love . so Laly, in the minds of trailblazers you are polaris so I hereby anoint you the absolute crave Baby laly, it dawned on me that god speaks to us not through commandments, but through his inspirational p...

 Rose of Judah (Laly's Version) listen on youtube or here Rose of Judah (standard version) here let her play among the pulps and flowers   swaying with the breeze   contagious laughter brushes off catcalls from thorns   strolling between carnations, daisies and jasmines with an entourage of birds, bees, and butterflies she blends in with softness   I can take this into the far side bury my face in the colors of life & subside I'm eclipsed and dazed by that beautiful face so let her be What do I see in nature? a Judaean rose escapade, extending the elixir of her smile equalizing my epidemic forever, those beautiful eyes will her vision ever target me? Oh, how I wish to be victimized by her my Judaean rose the colors of humanity blended in her skin history melted into the color of her eyes languages spoken tattooed on her lips and that midline diastema smile is such a killer so let her run barefooted like a soft current between the hills as I envy nature gra...

 Hallelujah Laly listen on youtube or here      Hallelujah Baby (alternate version)  listen on youtube or here   I’ve scoured the books roamed the holy places in times of war & peace in faith and unison The masses praised the good lord chanting hallelujah = i vowed to wage war from a mile away then I read your eyes, I prayed for peace for me with you I greeted you with a smile you had me at Hallelujah = I’ve reviewed the history of your affairs, scanned the Geography of your body, infiltrated the spelled walls protecting you I’ve watched you from a third-eye view,   through my eyes, being a sinner & saint in lands of imagination dreams are lighter than gravity it’s a see-and-belief dilemma…. in the dark rooms of club hallelujah = i tattooed the thick air around you spoke to you in dialects of foreign tongues I gave mass, embracing your waist under the rain I tasted the gloss off your lips, a serum of hope and the flesh imprinted me into you ...

 Laly free listen on youtube or here Someone asked me once why I dedicate my thoughts and poems to laly. well The answer is simple you haven't seen her through my eyes you see, once she sears her smile into your imagination it's not simple to forget or to let go. to heal my mind, I write down every detail I can, purging her from my soul, I imitate the polars of nature, nourishing spring harvesting summer, withering autumn and the dying winter, my one-time funeral, or so I think. but the laws of nature have a repeating flaw cycle, spring comes through,  breathing life into the earth, and those neglected dead seeds come back kicking with life, I'll never be laly free. summer flourishes over the landscapes of my being the ghost of laly comes back to life again invading the privacy of my dying days bringing me back to life fulfilling the vacancy of absence with her beautiful face I'll never be laly free. there are no more losses for me to worry about, stalling the seasons ...

 Elcee's Birthday listen on youtube or here Unexplainable thoughts I have 9 on this December morning is this day tacked on your calendar? It's been a row of fruitful seasons. subtract one from me for not being around my declining seasons seem mundane = I don't have birth moments like you, just hope & anticipation so I tag on to yours. your Birthday's an epiphany I give it room service A bump up from gravity A blessing you're around albeit opposite ends of coasts. = though the reasons are here In the flesh and bones of you celebrating nothing is out of the ordinary; you do you in Los Angeles, and I am still me, still swaying with what's left of your sweet aura in New York City. What a deserted place on this elevated day dragging out my side, that's stuck in the moments. = It's the time of the season to change, to renew the old, like me The Seasonal winds of change Ripping me away from you drifting parts of me fall like leaves my days slapped around i...

 the Offering listen on youtube or here Laly, I just needed one more verse I was a verse short when you left you fell off this poem oblivious to the lines the ticking of time the misplaced stepping stones or deducing the crux of the rhymes leaving me unfinished. I, alone here, guarded the stanzas from smoke, negative verses from ashes of time on the ruins & landscapes of your reputation, I had it on the reserved loop mode clearing paths for memories to flow back & forth that might lead you back when you picked another stream laly I promised myself that, I will last forever with you with a poem for those after us to remember a definition of how to break a heart you offered to martyr me at the pinnacle of my devotion to you, to go out on top, but I declined, I was a fertile crescent, I had more dedication, to pave a path to our now-ruined penthouse, to accommodate you one more night. I should've taken the offer but I was a fool I should have known I would've been done wi...

 Creation listen on youtube or here some creations are so perfect they evolve to destroy it started when I took a sip, kissing the glass rim of rose water, from a waterfall by the milky way, magnificent, but it's nothing like the kisses I dire for to match my taste, Heaven & earth created for the masses, but my need is to create my own missing masterpiece I shall create someone a demigoddess. = a consummation of my inner core, recklessness, emotions, elite alphabet, ambition, sprinkled with a little greed, and a little flavor of everything human that shall flow throughout her, around me...  = fragility is born from within a human activated when broken it starts out as a thought coded words on lines, encrypted on the pillars of my commandments, a creation in the form of a poem taking her shape as I create balanced concoctions flesh and bones, I've perfected her killer smile. = Pieces extracted from me form life, the core of me begets her a spirit, therefore I am, and she i...

my own mecca * listen on youtube or here Laly Laly let me tell you how it all began I was facing Mecca on a daily submission But in me, odds allied Servitude and ambition Were longing for a place where you were A rebellion city rooting for a muse My demigoddess on earth you Embracing the tainted calls of your ego I called on sourly I etched your name being what I am I burst into the resurrection phase A slate sheet of devotion And I emptied myself recklessly My corrupted faith gave me away There is no place for satan here It's just pure me The holy wept muddy tears The unholy joyed my infidelity What a savage salvation I refused to sear my kisses with the poly A small step for the masses My celibacy is exclusive to you mono A giant step for humankind If only God had taught me to hate you better Have I mistakenly understood to love others like thy selves? Have I misunderstood that? I just gave you a little more than I can handle Otherwise, I wouldn't believe or feel the aura I ...

room 1209 listen on youtube or here room 12 (laly's verion) here trouble found me in room 1209 I entangled it in my dilemma It absorbed what I was going through trouble now has its own trouble defining dilemmas just like me god calls it sinful lust satan, on the other hand, calls it a lush pleasure it's the battle of forever let them judge me how they see it both on opposite ends of the spectrum love or sin, it's the same to me I just want you somewhere in the end barely dreaming but by the 9th night, everyone is here diabolic notions chaperoned by my alternating Jekyll & hyde personalities my head floating above the pillow sensing respirations of your breathing mutating my humanity, the smell of lingerie It reminds me of whispers from the past signs, passion for peace slogans, so I morph for hedonic head trips version 97 this time for a drive in her cruise ship with customized license plates exhausted decadent lust purged, I load up more from a slit in my leaking glut...