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 Hello laly  listen on youtube or here hello laly I know things aren’t as clear as they should've been but I'm in dire to explain or apologize for being so vague however you may see it. so I composed a poem for you I reminisced to your voice from the files of my mind, and i said to myself, wow what a beautiful voice, angelic but I overhauled the poem, inching closer to match that wholesome tone and vibe and i validated my thoughts through your voice over and over reconstructing the poem again and again until your voice became a calling from beyond refining this poem into a worship chant to reach where ever you are 125 but i concluded that you don’t deserve to be loved. Love is beneath you, love is for human consumption only you deserve something higher and stronger than love . so Laly, in the minds of trailblazers you are polaris so I hereby anoint you the absolute crave Baby laly, it dawned on me that god speaks to us not through commandments, but through his inspirational p...

 friends listen on youtube or here my heart is not beating much, but i can hear it condemning me where do I start from when all my friends are gone? i can only trust the dead because they can't harm me anymore at the peak of loneliness, I ask myself, how am I loved? what is it, and which version should I trust they all give me the same feelings, but the end is always disappointing from the closest of them all to the furthest it starts out with ordinary trust, then it changes gears midway betrayal seems like the order of life; it seems like there's a conflict of interest every day seems like the last as I got old, I never learned, in life, there's a different lesson every day Hope is a killer for a shallow soul adored as a wealth mine for the greedy I might be a fringe to be served on someone's plate for an anniversary... I've made it this far I've been living the moments since my arrival, to say hello, I've got to go back to the land I have wandered off fro...

 Smile junkie (version #1) listen on youtube or here on her far side, I'm the favored smile junkie rejected in the scope of ascendance an easy enemy in chronicle order. in my dilemma, I have dual answers loving you is an acquired taste & patience patience like mummifying high-stoned butterflies, because they resist the least. couldn't have had a better adverse drug burn inside, I save the effect of your smile for the last hit, An illusion whispering to me   everything is alright, for you, that is. And I'm here phening, on a photo, Hello beautiful face, confessing into a void, a streak in the midnight sky inspires me   to scratch your name gracefully off old returned mail, I'm working on better lies but no one survives you anyway, I just want to die for a little longer. Abundance is over there on the other side, with the flock praising you. I'm passed that phase. but I hate to be myself's bearer of bad news a rip in the fabric of a dark diary tale of a junki...

favorite liar listen on youtube or here Because I misread your gaze when you said hello I searched for lost diamonds in your lies I've discovered the fire you set up and the plan dumping my pools of innocence in your rivers of deceit between what you said and what you meant, I'm troubled to call you a friend, Yet I was trapped in your childish games delusional between your body parts & fool's paradise leisuring under cool cotton candy clouds playing in melon-flavored jelly mud other times it's a dilemma to call you a friend,   I adored you so much I couldn't turn around and walk away I had to stare into a homicide or die by suicide walking away, you decide, does it feel like I'm lying? = wrapped in woven sheets of make-believe I was tempted, I was too innocent to ask, too guilty to steal, too weak to run, too numb to argue, Words objected coming out crooked.I wanted you to morph out of my fantasy How do you feel about that? Do you think I'm lying? = I h...