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Jerusalem Moon listen on youtube or here Jerusalem Moon anticipating scars of moonlight tapping my window tonight from my Jerusalem moon a private call when city worshipers sleep exhausted defending their gods with sticks, stones, history & verses I rise to pray in my own way evidence of faith weighs heavy =. I've been marking calendars tracking phases of the moon in the 12 constellations , counting blue stars I know them by name. fading smile wilt from sheets of cold nights the perfect treat for my bitter silence =. Where is this patience taking me? there are no clouds in the Jerusalem night sky , somethings not wanted, pretenders like circles in the sky painted with milk , dying in the mirror looks easy pacifying this old infant in me takes time. = my entries of once upon a time scratched, rewritten to "before time," staining her rosy pillow lips with the moody ink of my pen... = Is she mad? I just wanted to stretch back into both ends of her "foreve...

Into you listen on youtube or here the sins I’ve redeemed through ablution had the rivers stagnant, bypassing waterfalls   recognizing me as a sinner waters now has a stale taste in my life I sneaked into your head to be heard as I stand in the corner of your thoughts unceremoniously, you passed me down into trash memory even though I adore you. should've seen what I had for you could've meant so much to you sacred beliefs in a scarce land not to want you unless you initiate. & I'm into you I’ve held the hands no one cared for   chain-smoked the bitter-sweet memories stretching a long way from home & reasons for living had me barely breathing   spiraled echos delayed streaming the dreams saving remnants of my traded soul for drift control I edited names and places, so you might call me by mistake   I was risking the rules for a free fall . I feared reaching the end of outside, too deep for my infant dreams to venture,   the lesser of two evils, I invit...

never lasting lies listen on youtube or here     between never lasting lies once or twice I paused to think things through I felt you in moments knocking me down, postponing goodbys , holding me at bay, it’s my shame I let you hold me between the obscene & the bold loathing the moments of recognition until it came to light. = I was born & buried Softly to do time I had faith that lips were for smiling hands are for greeting fear is for guiding me into you but it was worthless on your downside saints have given up, and sanity walked away . == === Saints have given up, and sanity walked away. chest too numb to feel the debts of the dead pulses of deeds amused, I never went alone into the unknown against you Love is slow & hard to push around by myself, too deep to audit what’s left of us no matter what we give each other. = in the end, it’s us; we could never believe my love it’s the greed in the clarity of the moments between never lasting lies. = lyrics & vocal...

precious v1 listen on youtube or here precious v2  listen on youtube or here (version 2 lyrics below)     ------------------  I make a full bow   with half emotion,   quarter lust   a quarter to spare   net weight of words   overexpands my capacity…   = I foresee my gain   here's the move on   are you mad yet?   = dispensable, recyclable   alive I am in your face if you spare,   snuff me, and I'm a memory   in your mind everywhere you step. So dispose of me accordingly. = I won't die just for the taking   a deficient creation made by you   versatile to your taste.  = a temporary sanctuary, a torture house   I'm a straight-faced scarecrow by myself   a full circled spell in you.   = I feel you are so precious   igniting flames in my head   sensing an onslaught of a death scene   about to be deja vu … = I sense you coming to me   to be dispensable at your nee...

why? listen on youtube or here   why ? why do i I touch the sky, poke the clouds But can’t feel the spirit of life around Where are the powers to help me? Where are they? = I plowed into the earth’s crust . But all I feel is the dead Where is life that springs from it? = I have a photograph and a backup in my mind yet still vague, not close enough = You are everywhere to be felt, and nowhere to be seen in my cause, a true chameleon , you are = I walked the destination-free roads anticipating an ambush from you I chilled with my aimless moments to kill the time I possessed your games up to the third base Where did I divert? Where did I go wrong? = I adjusted the heavens redirected the clouds to 45 degrees to my left & the winds to 12 knots rubbed earth’s belly massaging the dead citizens of my past = reintroduced myself to a photograph that can't remember me rebooted an out-of-sync backup in my mind Where did my strategy implode? = I, In the penthouse, hating you from above l...

Journey listen on youtube or here cruising the Pacific Ocean on the sunset’s blue side, my spirits paving a silver wake towards the ski’s end, to the high counsel... an exclusive flight with control damage, seeking the queens’ meadows, that rumored high-hope mystery... it's a head trip to Dove Coast Bay, strong and silent, filled with hysteria, a magic sunbird protecting an anti-freeze doll, a wizard of hearts with pistols & roses, guarded by dead soldiers a distance away, I scale the walls of the “Bay of Pirates” castle. A particular status brat, cold on a throne, highly handed maids that drain you, crowned in vapor & scarlet smoke, holier than thou... surrounded with regal snow, taste of honeydew, I replenished an amphora .   fleeing in the south winds in my streamer on the ocean crest you a phoenix in the air above, take a dashing drive, landing on soft pillows, Meet a demon lover on a purple bed between posts of flying dragons on a deck stuffed with pink clouds and ...

favorite liar version 3 official (instrumental update)  listen on youtube or here favorite liar listen on youtube or here favorite liar version 1   favorite liar version 2     Because I misread your gaze when you said hello I searched for lost diamonds in your lies I've discovered the fire you set up and the plan dumping my pools of innocence in your rivers of deceit between what you said and what you meant, I'm troubled to call you a friend, Yet I was trapped in your childish games delusional between your body parts & fool's paradise leisuring under cool cotton candy clouds playing in melon-flavored jelly mud other times it's a dilemma to call you a friend,   I adored you so much I couldn't turn around and walk away I had to stare into a homicide or die by suicide walking away, you decide, does it feel like I'm lying? = wrapped in woven sheets of make-believe I was tempted, I was too innocent to ask, too guilty to steal, too weak to run, too numb to...

by an oasis listen on youtube or here by an oasis underneath a shade, let me hurt alone to air my grievance to the wise man to give away a slice of my troubled peace,   but not the actual pain, because I can't find it in me it's coming from your direction so the wise man advised that i need to keep myself away from me   I never comprehended his words about my suicidal dreams, undecided about a way to decipher a vision of me   under the shade of a palm tree a visioned mirage hiding in the next oasis that I could never reach alludes me just like you. = you vanished when i trespassed into your fantacy for a glimps of your beauty's domicile to enlighten my poorly paved path and i pretended that you wanted to touch me and now i'm alone by an oasis I think I’m numb   taking strokes from the sun alone to ponder this trip now, the jitters of hope fade just like the wise mans advice holding my breath for your return   to tell you I want to trip on the fault line to end...

North Star listen on youtube or here The burdens of my past on the train of time passes me by ahead waiting at the final moment spot Where I’m likely to greet you Heavy fog on my shoulders Pushes redemption to the edges of my conciousness into pits of lies.   Burden tells me I’m out of line. = Free falling with the setting sun Engraving its memoirs In a foreign land I find tattooed trees of strange faces asking to take them with me = I’m looking at the cold-colored whiskey moon reflecting the color of your eyes a vagabond on the road seeking My North Star = I can still manage a thought observing a pregnant tree Wishing to be reincarnated a rose to be plucked and smelled To infiltrate a beloveds head to Hear thoughts to Touch their senses to each their own, seeking their North star =   I tattooed a farewell note on a Graffiti wall   posting past sacrifices signing my name I join a nocturnal club waking up before sundown Before you exhale from somewhere Taking me to ex...

driven beyond listen on youtube or here driven beyond I’m trying to be, So let me see what you offered It was unwanted, but let me dig & plow in a bottom-free dream land So I dived to explore you in a deep ocean of green The grassy green you slept on The scene was beholding, & I was driven beyond from private playground to public dominions I let you play me, controlling yourself as you say I was driven beyond == I read the fear in your beautiful eyes, The fear of losing your will to the cause of your deception And it wasn’t what you wanted, You were almost driven beyond I felt true emotions underneath the fake touches What you thought was an illusion was seven colored pulses, seeping from your fingertips Doubt reached you a tad late I almost met your feelings face to face So, everything's the same as you left it, When you were almost driven beyond occasionally, dials of life spins, scrambling channels between your face, your mo...