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 abuse   listen on youtube or here kiss my wounds & I'll digest your lies delete all that's been done & let's start over one more time   grease the next promise under the sun   let's redo nursery rhymes of Shoots and Ladders     color the eyelids for disguise   change the name & sip from tears   with a new set of friends to use you have what it takes to abuse restrain me from the soft feminine violence   I’ve abandoned my soul when it failed you   just the basic fact   follow me to where it hurts    over here with bad company in a corner wishing you to share my disposition I'm at fault for not telling you what would I do if pleasure was in my hand but for now, your abuse is chewing chances away I’ve been where you wanted   done what you’ve asked quenched from your dreams   I’ve touched your blues   I've observed you on the horizon above but that cloud isn't blessing my days the miscarriage ...

 semi-green patch v1 listen on youtube or here just one of your spectrums I want to see the soft side forward   like the golden sun in a cold frame like stinging kisses embracing pregnant dreams   or cold morning dew & night memories   they all gathered at the corner of my eyes   still, tasting acid vows pronounced while taking in the plague   that came with the midnight coffee   talking about peace & the olive branch and the price that lies in the soft lining of a casket   with my eldest smile aged tired of waiting for the green light   and which way to go when I reach the bends   at the corner of your promises   you promised I could touch you as a favorite flavor burn my tales to keep you warm I would gaze you as a new attitude   uncover my bones   I would stick around you   to get this funky high in everything you are     but lovers don’t wait for dreamers like me   just like the sun they ha...

 deflower my soul    listen on youtube or here today as before, I stand here waiting I've lost the taste of goodbyes & hellos   yearning to deflower my virgin soul with you I'm burying rumored pages in the afternoon   news about bones on a gun dirt squeezed from stones   prayers from a nun hung in the air but you're on the flip side   eyes on skin & boys having you for fun   so what’s being born   innocence or porn   the word has spun   what have you done? time has been carving the hands of people I know it’s strange these thoughts lead me to mummified moments it was so thoughtful of my dreams to turn up the volume to hear you so many times solitude has been leading people on to guess that I’m saving my purity for you to deflower it’s all becoming a single ambition to be virgin-free circulating black market rumors about you stolen from grapevines   were they sold in bazaars for money or for the validation crown is it y...

 bow down    listen on youtube or here bow down bow over my aspiring soul, the healer has arrived to realign my heartbeat spread a smile for sustenance lock the eyelids shut bend the head at the neck keep faith open wide for the kiss.   she’s about to bless as she comes closer to perform the rituals   giving birth to the moment I inhale deeply into my stale lungs the fresh air she exhales to show me around myself gift wrap me as wanted memories had shaped me well for this moment so far.   so I bow down she comes to me slow thunder she comes to me with static crawling ahead she comes to me with her hair down time runs on a countdown until her lips embrace mine in a gentle crush, releasing edible venom feeding the addiction the honor of being the chosen one, ever so gracious and rumors had it that the less I have, the little I want, but that's a lie the more she gave, the longer I needed it. so I bow down bow down bow over my perishing prayers, little use do...

 unforgiven listen on youtube or here one day you'll feel a disconnect around you, as if the world has betrayed you, the emptiness of searching for that one person that's searching for you in return, in between the intervals of those days remember me my adored laly, let me tell you about loneliness and pain, you see, no one bypasses its treachery, as we grow older no one can say they lived without pain it's the salt of life, spiking flavor into us to see, feel, and taste life better or different it makes some of us hypocrites covering our grievances with fake smiles it tattoos a scar on the heart validating our humanity I have certified your name into me I just want my name on you. so I've thought of the unforgiven laly, because the lord has the good books, prophets, and chants I've decided to make these poems for you as your book I've decorated them for you with my voice as chants and I'll spread them as your personal prophet and with time everyone will kn...

 duality listen on youtube or here I have dual domiciles, I'm from over there, but I belong here, I have split identities, dual names, dates of birth, unknown dates of death, one mandated by the lord and one for you to script I have dual languages, one for the earthlings & one for you my adore dual feelings I deal with, hope & failure, take your pick to manipulate. I have dual imaginations centering around you,    over there, you were born from the best of me, discretion advised, it's concentrated on my past, from my needs that I molded into the shape of you with some impurities a definite and over here I've come to see what my mind has begotten if I wasn't over here I wouldn't know what I've meant or created from over there. I witnessed my oath of loyalty travel on raven wings, coming from a different timeline where I once was so receive my needs well, as spun flirt or confessions consider my duality. any of my dualities could've been the man you n...

 stay in my head listen on youtube or here I was rotated into the portal of your eyes from the last epiphany spot, i knew searching for your soul in a maze following your voices inspired to be the second coming I Navigated the paths to a place I dreamt to the last frontier of an Uncharted territory in the distance, I spotted a running silhouette of you. An omen of what’s to come if you don't receive me from the corner of my mind   This is how I go out tonight sharing a piece of me, to give you peace trading parts of me for places with you keeping the shell of my heart, I'll grant you the core take your time abusing it as you please just stay in my head play or reject it as you see fit trash it in your toy box pain is always around loaded all wrong everyone has some It’s okay; I just need you in return to be your prophet to the masses patience was recommended as a best friend proving to you that I’m worthy of holding my grounds & you'll grant me a notion that you’re mor...

 untraceable listen on youtube or here reflective eye movements dart into the unknown I saw it through a breathing being like me  prompting to Question my lost attachment the theft of my serenity she: being the Quest puzzles me but satisfies I think I have a trace of her   I join the bedouins serenading the rababa strings absorbing tales of ether life gone recalling spirits of ancient martyrs I simmer with the smoke and fire basking between sand dunes until the light of the early morning repeating songs depletes the soul I love for her to turn me on to trace the history of that adorable face The glowing tales of a thousand nights in the Negev desert rejuvenate the weary where poets justify lyrics over bonfires, and godfathers of poetry validate who's been hurt the most. & every story is mine, do you think I'll learn? no, we're like suicidal moths attracted to flames it hurts so good unlike the dark side of my beloved hearts the thrill of the callings lights up my bla...

 Roaming grave burn listen on youtube or here it was a fallout plan from the beginning now banished in my roaming grave I'm bleeding since you've left wounded lungs fending off stale air around me despite the burning cold eyes,   you still look so lovely without me,   I know I’m far in a roaming grave my skin is holding me together grazing away, growing withered grasping dried pages of our past   browsing pictures that converted into regret,   roaming deeper into a blank future the shade of your lips lacks the feelings now remind me of the flavor, please I could tell the pain is infecting me,    was I that reckless?   I couldn’t recall faith in me then, unlike now when it's stripped away my wisdom left my crave crusade,   between the jagged edges of Questions & the softness of deceiving answers I have proof that I still adore you     for one more try to conquer you peacefully   come to me or from here, I'll crawl to y...

 I lose my mind listen on youtube or here birth of summer begets sleepless nights, wandering blurry steps of an untamed beauty in my place exploring a newborn Ego fighting caged innocence, untamed fantasies in the spaces of peace warming to the attitude of healing the feelings I converse with those liquor-red lips about virgin desires falling from grace serving suicidal souls so dance on center stage preach in the crater of my mind lay in the core of my heart so easily, I can lose my mind touch me to resonate the sounds of this moment emotions translate into spelled words exposed feelings egged on by dead poets,   brush up on old tales about where was i then, but I'm here now & the crowd of me echoed a last hurrah the battle has just begun   so lay low & let me lose my mind Eager to see how careful I am facing my own wishes to have your soul & how much of you I can handle Because the more you grow, the more I care. the more you're willing, the more I lose my ...