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 ragdoll boy listen on youtube or here come & play with me Throw away your toys pick me up the ragdoll boy Play with me provacatively as a riddle sounds responds as you rough me up when you take me in or throw me away on the floor in a tantrum. I cry, i laugh, and feel for you as you want Stuff me in the black cotton play house Let the nervous glow of your smile emit with the stories you tell me we'll make it like the movies Dress me in your sorrow shredded tales cast me as the villain in the beginning and as the redeemer in the end I wouldn't say I like pretending to romance you too much I'm just not trained to say goodbye, as you. You still get what you want, drama. today you sang to me as you would to those who broke you we pretended I was one of them coming back I played the flute along with you too bad songs have endings I like getting stuck in the moments with you no one understands you as I do I'm the reality escaping crossing bridge I'm your jester; I...

 straining listen on youtube or here on the first day of spring, bury me with all your doll parts for rehab down in a hole to shame with the burden of the lust of my ungrateful twin the ugly side of me, so here's a thank you for the glance you gave me the snub that followed a point you concluded. I'll follow you as an idol, if I had nothing on my back if not for ugly, the ugly in me somewhere the best is yet to come so let me linger, to sharpen the thorn in my side, I punish myself for a slate new day, after darkness leaves me stripped it might not quite be the way out but under celebrity skin as my cover I might get some leniency. I'll tear under the warning sirens on a bed of roses I conduct myself to crawl when you're around with the thorn thrust to my side until you hear me so let me slide over to watch you witness the wind of change watch you breath in my face. there's nothing better for me in life than to make me better for you sometimes I won't let mysel...

 prelude listen on youtube or here There's a prelude for a song in my head I need to write for you chanel and a ration of purity helps. my pain differs, I'm pacified, so disclose some flawless mistakes, inspire me with the ones that stuck on you, a couple of days' worth to soften the aged words out of the womb of my head in a dyslexia order, just like my thoughts. = moments from life stand still stranded a bit longer waiting for that portrait snapshot to amplify everything I imagined, Poses I have yet to see from you. memory's at a mundane distance germinating into bad company. all the crazy images I received, none looked or spoke like you. = the things that could've been. all the usual evaded hints, catching sour stones out of crooked mouths thrown at you reviving old reels, It would've been just you, me & a prelude. but all this was just an overture for the emotions that just arrived at the end of this poem But a song is coming home to you. What you hear ...

 I feel kamikaze listen on youtube or here a tale of invasion & struggle for freedom albeit wanting you all your egos cheered along the aisles induced me to confess, to surrender, to pledge my allegiance to you my heart's been invaded, stretches of consciousness sabotaged my freedom's a puppet in your grip now to be friend zoned guaranteed what a good boy for you... but in reality, something is calling me from the core and I feel kamikaze from a foreign land I now call home, a rebel call I long to belong where I've been A rebel yell my Shangri-La my body, my nation, anywhere you're not I'm exiled from my own self to retrieve what you've taken stolen sleep from the eyes of the poor fondled the young heart of my weak trance enraging in bitter red blood I raise my flag of rage I build up arms again I'm gunning for the bottom I feel for you just not the way you want somethings not wanted to be taken, but given & I feel kamikaze the day I tried to live i...

 Smile junkie (version #1) listen on youtube or here on her far side, I'm the favored smile junkie rejected in the scope of ascendance an easy enemy in chronicle order. in my dilemma, I have dual answers loving you is an acquired taste & patience patience like mummifying high-stoned butterflies, because they resist the least. couldn't have had a better adverse drug burn inside, I save the effect of your smile for the last hit, An illusion whispering to me   everything is alright, for you, that is. And I'm here phening, on a photo, Hello beautiful face, confessing into a void, a streak in the midnight sky inspires me   to scratch your name gracefully off old returned mail, I'm working on better lies but no one survives you anyway, I just want to die for a little longer. Abundance is over there on the other side, with the flock praising you. I'm passed that phase. but I hate to be myself's bearer of bad news a rip in the fabric of a dark diary tale of a junki...

 Creation listen on youtube or here some creations are so perfect they evolve to destroy it started when I took a sip, kissing the glass rim of rose water, from a waterfall by the milky way, magnificent, but it's nothing like the kisses I dire for to match my taste, Heaven & earth created for the masses, but my need is to create my own missing masterpiece I shall create someone a demigoddess. = a consummation of my inner core, recklessness, emotions, elite alphabet, ambition, sprinkled with a little greed, and a little flavor of everything human that shall flow throughout her, around me...  = fragility is born from within a human activated when broken it starts out as a thought coded words on lines, encrypted on the pillars of my commandments, a creation in the form of a poem taking her shape as I create balanced concoctions flesh and bones, I've perfected her killer smile. = Pieces extracted from me form life, the core of me begets her a spirit, therefore I am, and she i...

 dream machine listen on youtube or here my dream machine my dream machine is asking questions about the tales I spin Soft accidents I mummify, expansions & compressions in my head about brutal addictions about signing my death certificate as I wake up I sweet pillow talk my dream machine, what's a dream without her? What should I do with this vast landscape of imagination? as a kingdom without a dictator queen isn't it enough I don't possess her in real life? what's water without fire despair without hope death without life What is my addiction free, and she's my favorite refill every night? I get it for free all I have to do is die and it heeds semi understanding it fades into me to find shrapnels in the hurting folds of my pulsing veins, extracting them faithfully painfully under the numbness of my breath, it was in the third blind spot corner in my survival box that I forgot to let them go; the last time There in the hollow spots cohabiting infesting... bre...

violation on chastity listen on youtube or here There is a strange color hidden in between the shades of your eyes and lips a wolf in sheep's clothing. in nocturnal hours speak to me anything Some secrete variety. get me high on something tell me clear outright lies a sparkle gives the nod to encroach your milk-white skin, I drift toward your chameleon eyes I’m a little skeptical but I will believe it. Infringe on the truce let me show you the effect of your words, truth or deception my fingers touching your back via braille, reciting back my finds, the violent words we uttered slandering each other covering our shortcomings a Pyrrhic stranglehold I'm a bit Skeptic.   You make feeling bad like good loving all the violence we’ve committed, on the playing fields, four quarters before morning it's a fair game between bed posts. we dropped our clothes of innocence we are the wolves, you & I, a pure violation of chastity. but your eyes say it's okay it's your holy h...

 Break Through listen on youtube or here I can show you more than bare signs - what many can't, cause I know what you want it's better to do it together so let's desist traumatizing the days halting them in their summertime first steps let me love you the way I want to come on over I have more than just signs I grant the masses passages through my eyes to be properly seen gleefully in delight like the first time we met, with that smile that I miss the most the hidden little things about you I need to discover I know what you want; I know your trigger let me have it - come on, breakthrough to this side let's disconnect these doubtful shades & engage spectrums of you they still linger, waiting,   popping up in thin skin here & there, wanting to play parts of you in everyone I'm connected to your name loving them all for the sake of you let me possess you the way I want it's been a while since I saw you let me have it my way cause drifting further apart cr...

 Burn your name listen on youtube or here elcee How do you feel? A mutiny against you, the holy? changing the narrative redeeming myself burning the letters Rebuffed traps of aliases in your name sailed away to another shore now I'm burning you for comfort; I'm burning your name. = as a last-ditch, I came to you staggering, I left an angry wrecking ball when I showed you my plan The haunting starts as you sleep when the effect of your lies lightens, a triangle of sadness, you, me & your name. = do you remember the day the charming tip of your tongue, smudged red graffiti on the cobblestone sidewalks of my modest life,? corrupted in the name of giving butter & honey, those flavored memories & what comes with them chilled the spines of angels and demons. = you were a blessing, high, gradually sloped into a burden I scratched the night walls to hear me, patches of the blues guitars whinings no longer appealed and the tappings of the piano no longer comforted whispers ...

 Seven sins menu listen on youtube or here scrolling menu eyes of seven sins with you, my faith is qualified dirty I hand over my pride at the door, Eligible first-class seat south of your navel Pure sin is the night's flavor Rampage, Bells & Whistles fine ingredients harvested from the wrath from your heart from the core I expose my greed, I asked to dish it out, more gluttony of mind, some I handle well, Wait till I lust your mouth for dessert, I envy what's left on the table I envy what's left of you on the table, Sloth fits me fine when I'm done feasting, Wiping my sanity on your flesh I went down for the third serving, I feel so disgustingly filthy, So satisfied, Tasting what I can never have enough of, what I don't deserve. As you like us to feel. Then, it gets too clear… Redemption is just a turnstile to renew the cycle.   So I get close to god in the wrong way, to get back to you. Born again for your seven-sin menu. (extended) I do it again I come back ...

influence listen on youtube or here demons taught me to waltz with the voluptuous nuns they love the world, but can't lie down with anyone celibacy is their game = Our grasp of sharing differs. = big Buddha, still in his frozen pose, still seeking wisdom more so his wandering gaze seeks whom to give it too I listened he taught me patience to sift ripe moments. = God is not around to guide me; he needs a messenger to communicate, he leaves me to my own devices. = Satan's minions catered to me personally they love me more than I can reciprocate, gravely matters between these two. = but you, beloved, you influenced me via tequila-flavored kisses coupled with a whisper like a revelation from god, = you served me personally like satan, the best of both worlds, such oddity in one body,   such revelations colliding = striking a spark, a catalyst for a dark spell not to care, = couldn't have been better explained the end justifies the means, as long as I have you. = Feb 09 2023 =...

 Analyze my poems v1 listen on youtube or here Let death have a seat in the rocking chair while I prepare my last testament: bury me in a shallow grave by the tunnel's sidewalk, where I have a chance to feel her footsteps passing by and plant her an oak tree for shade, so she can read my poems for her back to me = color my headstone royal purple wrap me in canvas as my farewell suit seasoned with glittered dirt analyze the sprinkled dots lettered l-a-l-y. Granting my poems antiquity weaved within it the stories of my birth, love, defeat, and death. = ornaments in the passing autumn wind sweeping our regrets to freeze in winter castling them for exhaled breaths of the living in the currents of spring, splash the spotlights on me. Release them; it's now summertime.  = sing slow songs for a sloth mind,   for the slow denials to catch on I have some unsolved thoughts left. = I found out that the after-effect was satans charm in the wake of her passing image a fake light in a...

 idiotic prayers listen on youtube or here Chanel, listen to the voices (1) put your hands over my mouth, my adore before I say an idiotic prayer. what do I need to pray for when you visit me in a limited edition dream, a wish scratched off my bucket list. I must have done something good or is it just extra time on your hand? = I've given Pain some time off to hang out with the negatives; it'll be a while before we reunite, or maybe not. shut your hands over my mouth before I say another idiotic prayer. = lean into me, let me take a look into your soft-core eyes to examine the long winding roads I had to take to get here to have you in my dream. orate a melancholy voice as a serenading flute, how I've lost a soul, just like you, is that why you are here? Chasing hot trails of gossip? Have you seen what I've missed? = (2) I try not to be an idiot praying for more of you, too much freedom is for migrating clouds and I'm in your arms as free as I want guessing what my...

 dead & gone listen on youtube or here ashes to ashes dust to dust everything you touch burns everything is dead and gone. = everything you touch burns I've forsaken my soul ashes to ashes dust to dust to be dead and gone. I regret what I know shadowy guesses taking chances knowing you at the edge of 25 I was had at hello pieces of addicted dreams I punish under my skin I inject your face into my veins an epiphany breakaway songs migrating towns tearing down fences building walls in a grudge on its way out to seek you and like my slurred figures of speech switched before birth a case of nostalgia blues four decks deep....   voices roll out slow too old to flow, just like me to lock in your glimmer my future suffers following your path it took a callous heart to break a solid core, in the forgotten futile battles you've broken all my flags, the star of David, the cross of Jesus, & the crescent of Muhummed along with the flags of the infidels tales of the uncanny hurtin...

 derailed listen on youtube or here I find you every woman's feature the jesters we traded bred intimacy, we reciprocate other's sins, begetting our own gravity abiding by what takes us passively sleeping in the sandbox of doubt next to the diluted innocence affected by hype   where the rivers of your love derail short of my veins graceful lips smile   kissing the marble cornerstone of your temple from the cold halls of the soul, you still show me what they say is true   that love masquerades around midnight. we all pray the same   but answers come back differently and our love flows around haphazardly in thirst, like misguided teenage infidel spirits; I linger;  I inhale what I can,   the aroma of your bed sweat, in mysteries, we click   in reality, we bore   in blasphemy, we eager   in matrimony, we lie, all in all, the extended truth is never enough   with its never-ending flow blindly following gravity. but around midnight, aro...

 April fool listen on youtube or here Give into me with a smile. I wish for one more sacrifice. Do it for charity - for the temporary goodbye. Until I see and greet you again Blend my colorful sentiments. With the first layer of mud you step on. Mold my oaths to you in it. Pretend to be a Sagittarius I'll be the Virgo. The next in line every time. I fly from the hills of Grenada. on time to whip out the euphoria For the annual April Fools break-up coincidently, on this day Let's pretend Cry, and I'll cry along. Appreciate the beady eyes. How does the comeback feel? Sing, and I'll sing along. coming from so far just to tune my voice To a different melody. I gave up a good defeat. So rebate my rusted hand. Did your heart turn black formatting time? When I wasn't around On a Friday leisure walk? Who's gonna love you like I do? Busy polishing scars when I was away To shine when you come around Don't you just love me back for sticking around?. Sing, and I'll...

 new religion listen on youtube or here I heard you on a corner curiosity got the best of me I had nothing to lose I watched you on a podium invoking dark-colored dreams   under an awning under the rain   the sounds of your soft, raging voices    the premonitions you thunder for a crowd of one, me that god has sent an angel in the creature perfect you about saving me   & yes, I’m here to receive preaching what I can be if I let you touch me   a raving mad woman, you are predicting uninvited twists   preaching patience   chanting verses   affirming low-cost heavens   soon for this older man growing  in me   yes, I’m listening   & I’m captivated by the burnings of your humming words the simmerings of your beautiful cheeks   & I hold my head humbled  in amazement   yes, I concur what is pride if it is not desecrated & purified by you   what is heaven & hell without punishments ...

schism listen on youtube or here bound my voice; I don't need it listen to my hums vibrating through my skin in Morris codes translate my rhymes it reflects what I can't confess feel my schisms coming out I live through the night wandering your silk hair with my fingers, I stream through strands one by one reading their DNA like Braille breaking codes in the creases of my palms, which dream needs me to belong I'm in a schism mode I have the black & white I need the colors in between from you, I need to be found, and I'll be fine.... bringing my schisms together   if you have the urge of need & keep, shut out the thought of opening your eyes & burying me in the morning, I don't want to be a passing memory by the afternoon keep your eyes closed, release your hands-free to wander about me I'm okay with being a subconscious shadow throughout your day, hug me tonight. I'm in a schism mode show me your moves and unify my schism I can be yours = Dec 27...

 butchered listen on youtube or here as signs encrypt my face I came to be here where the clouds parked to shade you, where the sun burns me, waiting for you, between us, gates of the wind shut, over us open blue skies ahead of us, the rendezvous   = I'll tell you why I'm like this you see parts of me were broken around the world here & there, the rest with you, butchered = you ran around in my head last week sending me a message: we can get lost together, dip on time, squatter a couple of days slip away farther... = your heart is stalling, though,   I'll take a deep breath Before my will collapse.  = I found a piece of land So you can reign as my queen It hurts. I can celebrate it is this how it's supposed to be? = but the reality is I'm here the doors of the wind promised to open soon Clouds still hovering and You're not here yet, signs encrypting my face are almost done and patience is not becoming my style waiting for a sign = Jan 07, 2023 lyrics & ...

 laid back Sachie listen on youtube or here hey Sachie, youth has been wasted without you kill the Valentine stem roses, hibernate childhood dreams, innocence was a lie in your head between 18 and that first warm bed, teen spirit juiced the air, the fire is preordained, it's a slow ride with the soft side of the demon in you riding shotgun, love is catering toxicity in the Backseat of a 67 Ambassador, Nocturnal animals you dreamt of gravitates toward you. Clipping chastity, from tomboy to baby doll. After all, is done, disinfect the lust with a blueberry ice-flavored shower. Douse the flavor of smoke & Corruption on chanting believers,   vulgar intentions vacantly aching, wishing for an itch of organic flesh, warming the marble floors. in the evening hours of late night oh, it's my bad, my bad sachie it's not a timeline you measure by it's the bodies you drop who cares about the sassy faith you follow when nightfall comes around, the devil & me scalping tickets...

 Elcee's covid smile listen on youtube or here  We’ll let me tell you about Elcee’s COVID smile you see, I let my guard down when I met her I’d never expected it from her. I was oblivious to her sneaking up on me with the smooth-talking cool gaze Covertly timed a smile tracker behind trust me; her smile hits you like covid long after she’s gone a little too late to dodge, it runs through your bloodstream gunning for your head supplied with bullets of fine air, caliber-type heavy it absorbs your brain cells on impact making comprehension dilutable, I told you her smile hits you like covid You see love comes hungry like an addiction a backpack full of stigma and Krazy glue, diagnosed bipolar on a good day Life is Bereft of smooth wheels love's full of fragile morales treading high on a tightrope it tricks you through a kaleidoscope I felt as privileged as a hand-picked clientele Desired for that one time & despised when I kept on breathing and the days healed me Though I mi...

holes in our passion listen on youtube or here let's go over last night by the bedside…. how I tried to dethrone you a faulting mess in my passion 35 Take a second deep breath, Regressing the reels of night, the lapses between cold pauses minor hesitations pulled you back some, As impulses had pushed me on to you.... you  uncovered me because you felt the blurring lines when I craved to carve you when I infected you with malice notions the truth I told you were just words in times of peace let's wipe this slate clean in motion for another try let's ditch the backfiring rules let's reflect on our pure intentions I'm in it for you now; I wish you would too We are the same with fine hearts, but instead, we're on this bed, deceiving each other with holes in our passions. 205 = Jan 02, 2022 = lyrics & vocals by azdi404 music credit: https://pixabay.com/users/olexy-25300778/ by Olexy  the-beat-of-nature-122841

Welcome to earth listen on youtube or here Hello Welcome to earth we're from dust you're one of us.... you're just far more perfected anonymous animals we are with deceptive intentions until we depose the false faces, we're more comfortable being strangers guising egocentric beliefs ravaging each other in Gramercy park by the pool you're just more innocently devious. seduction & snacks in the blood house distracts the honey girls, spin a mouthful of poetic air a pass to a land of imaginations for those escaping zoo nations blow the ashes in my face where you become a rumor. on a hypnotic journey lets trick the band of thieves postpone the joy ride into the wildland maze for later days lets shop artifacts of the dead let's walk the blvd with the stiff & beautiful you've become evanescence migrating into the minds of the clouds for the thirsty & bothered seeking hedonic adaptations like me for an example i lost my orientation at the bay of synapse...

 calling my own listen on youtube or here let the churches bells ring   the callings of the mosques wail   allow recitals of the temples whisper their soft tones decree what they believe in .....   that it was written as they believe, is it enough for a pitied soul like mine? = sounding hollow, not calling in your name so I called my own way For a piece of god, I plead, I relay, transcripted wounds to the higher   soaked with harsh words   let me grieve what I know and how i know casting the first stones even though I know I had dark plans of my own = you bathed your troubles in me you left your slate clean again I spread your sins on my skin to be semi-whole once more, in a tight space for me to pray you left me on the dark side of your heart, that's free solo, getting me so low, not exactly where I want to be, but it's somewhere in you where you shed broken parts, that I gathered, I've built a replica for you when you've gone = Have you seen my original ...

 unripened dreams listen on youtube or here In my place, you call home tending trapped premature dreams, harvested early from your fields still nailed to bent walls, waiting to ripen waiting for sun & rain & a blessing I let you peek into them if you could decipher my thoughts before clock hands convert digital. accepting the discords without the fact,   when the casting takes place we switch role playing, I'll be the useless Signing off draft dreams,   I sold copies of portraits in your sleeping moments   in its colorless phase time lays beside me comfortably numb out of sync sugarcoating my self-esteem, about my betrayal I thought you were still around, all I found was unripened photos nailed to the wall, under the canopy of bed sheets a silhouette of you. - but wait everything is paused around me and I’m waiting for the unusual to happen here In my place, you once called home - i'm tending trapped premature dreams, harvested early from your fields still n...

 have some listen on youtube or here come & Grace my presence for a moment to be a sacred one here, have a sip of Hennessy I don't drink, I'll wait to nurse on your lips, for some aftertaste. here, have a pull on this, I don't inhale, I'll wait till you exhale, some second-hand smoke. Touch me where you want I don't want your body, for now, I'll wait for your heart to beat "me." first talk to me as you would in a ceremony, a eulogy, I don't talk back, I'm an apprentice listener. speak to me as an assembly of one    hold me as a new breed my fascination's overdue, resistance gauge reads empty, do me as you, please. The ego in my hands expiring for a selfie for the afterthought phase, so, what's coming after this?...   Have what you want , I'll wait.... i'll stand in the background between meetings In my nocturnal times Absorbing the vibes Of you dragging out the moments for a finale of this fairytail take your time i'll ...

 side listen on youtube or here So How do you feel about my ugly out-side? being myself, The fault of an older man wanting you… How would you feel about my seasoned soft-side? decades of feelings aging like fine wine swinging from your soul, Holding a certified copy of lost faith, searching archives for an original backup I didn't anticipate you after so long from any side messages skewed between us, Reaching you deformed, I sent it decades ago written off as lost a callous attempt of itching wants. How would you feel if fate scripted you to touch me? Would you oblige or repulse me? I'm usually the molested one in this feud. Give me your hand I'll show you how to walk all over me risk-free to a comfy place for the night The womb of your mind in my heart observe it like an ancient relic my intentions are delusional when you're around arms held up in a V for a minor victory and a surrender sign for you come closer, I'm different on the inside tell me how you feel com...

 I can't be   listen on youtube or here I can't be the flame your wishing heart expects, or the hoping hub for a better tale. = I can't be the better side of today that steadies you when I’m still grounded in a shaky yesterday. = but shame on me, that I'll wait for you in a dream, to pass me by for hire. = I can't be the liar that expires when I meet you and still, be this boy inside or change the man outside. = I can't be the pretender on my knees. Asking you to use me one more time. = I tour wounds & feelings, mismatching empathy moments wishing to be something I'll never be. = I can hold either... my desires that burn my heart   or the truth that is too heavy to handle. = cast me aside, it can be the first step to healing, I don't deserve to have you, exempt me from this burden, of having me wasted in your mind, I can't be what you want I just can't be. == Feb 22, 2023 == Lyrics & voice : azdi404 Music credit: bensound - better days a...

my own mecca * listen on youtube or here Laly Laly let me tell you how it all began I was facing Mecca on a daily submission But in me, odds allied Servitude and ambition Were longing for a place where you were A rebellion city rooting for a muse My demigoddess on earth you Embracing the tainted calls of your ego I called on sourly I etched your name being what I am I burst into the resurrection phase A slate sheet of devotion And I emptied myself recklessly My corrupted faith gave me away There is no place for satan here It's just pure me The holy wept muddy tears The unholy joyed my infidelity What a savage salvation I refused to sear my kisses with the poly A small step for the masses My celibacy is exclusive to you mono A giant step for humankind If only God had taught me to hate you better Have I mistakenly understood to love others like thy selves? Have I misunderstood that? I just gave you a little more than I can handle Otherwise, I wouldn't believe or feel the aura I ...

 throne of lies listen on youtube or here There are remnants of me in your head Breathe into it; release them out to life. even with the opacity of thin skin, make it happen under the dress of darkness Just breathe and let me go. See how I'll shine under your moods. I'll be all grown by the break of dawn = The reflections I have of you throttled in my face & ran over me, spilling my senses with musk & perfume, Ejecting those false prophets, dragging them onto other corpses I've been locked in the sheltering seasons With those in the stiff-neck clubs for too long I believed everything they threw at me I stabbed it all for truth but, Nothing's a mystery like you everything about you is set on a repeat cycle. ======= Preach me about your sanctity like a religious zealot I don't know about everyone else, but I believe your throttling lies Tell me what I can handle in these accelerated years. Bring me the throne of lies that you reign on, The core smile that pow...

 begotten rapture listen on youtube or here + Juliette’s begotten rapture listen on youtube or here Pictures of you on the bed I'm on the floor, floating off-center, validated rumors bouncing between walls Echoing a decree of war you've initiated in my head, It feels insane looking so stoned.   Butterflies leaning on a chair Waiting for a destination to tingle I heave them away towards you But none returned What a shame the glass encasing your photo a barrier from feeling you in this hour, thirsting for your soothing icicle teeth, watching my tattooed name on your lips expire, peeling, dry as dust, You don't have to touch me Just send back the notions to dissect what used to bother me, distances between us unmeasured, tweaking the wavelengths of your smile, lush lips yearning for a squeeze What now seems so essential to feel. = I have fresh tendrils in my hand but so much for the soothsayer's prescribed antidote, to shield me from the heat of your trance, I saw archan...

 Green eyes push listen on youtube or here I like to lie to your green eyes I adore the reflection in your pupils… looking at me..... what I know about you, when you're not around pushes the strangest things in me the child, the want, the control the hug & the vibe, to give you something to hold, to think about.... greener fresher things from my memory. = You, playing along, the deceit you spin name me what you want ask how did we get here? call it what you call it we'll fake it til we make it... interacting spies for selfishness, we strive, lock & load your chest in my face, flames of your fingers tense, lay them on my back, a scratching field, even if there are plenty of wrongs we'll redeem our own sins I'll be forgiven by you & you'll forgive you... = we'll waste so much time to start over pushing ourself's onto each other lies again, we're bound to land somewhere with the lies we beget so just keep on pushing with your green eyes. = lyri...

 evil me listen on youtube or here let me bleed out the evil me to even the score     to make you feel better   on the inside & in my head   = so you could believe   that I don’t envy you underneath the scared surface of my face underneath this gray withered uprooted landscape,   going all out alluding me to follow. = just like the crowded clouds in the sky   rejecting the claim in my story so I chew on silence while I’m postponed   maybe I’ll be slain by you tonight   via poisoned kiss = so I turn to redemption   & to love god is escaping you   and to love you is death without god   and my naivety loves you more all this because I stole a combined moment of us   hid it in these pages to tell me that I was o.k.   that I shall tailor my skin to fit your needs   crucify my lips a symbol of redemption   that I won’t confess this love to anyone but you = I shall let the evil me bleed out on a ...

room 1209 listen on youtube or here room 12 (laly's verion) here trouble found me in room 1209 I entangled it in my dilemma It absorbed what I was going through trouble now has its own trouble defining dilemmas just like me god calls it sinful lust satan, on the other hand, calls it a lush pleasure it's the battle of forever let them judge me how they see it both on opposite ends of the spectrum love or sin, it's the same to me I just want you somewhere in the end barely dreaming but by the 9th night, everyone is here diabolic notions chaperoned by my alternating Jekyll & hyde personalities my head floating above the pillow sensing respirations of your breathing mutating my humanity, the smell of lingerie It reminds me of whispers from the past signs, passion for peace slogans, so I morph for hedonic head trips version 97 this time for a drive in her cruise ship with customized license plates exhausted decadent lust purged, I load up more from a slit in my leaking glut...

 pedestal listen on youtube or here  I took you to the house I watched you change on that pedestal, From a cocoon to a butterfly. I pulled a few strings I gave you a bow and arrow with failure to communicate I'm shot away while you sang.   how about that last dance I was promised let's have one last moist hour let me whisper a song to you or text it holding on to your burnished curls while you sang me a song.  = you're so terrible taming the bad seed, you can't wait to see me in you the three of us colliding, you, me & whatever's in you unexpected wickedness in a graceful eden morals fleeing the scene but guilty pleasures stuck around Your true feelings surfaced a wolf in sheep's clothing. = now you've changed on that pedestal and I'm feeling tomorrow from here I don't see myself there, I've got time to feel you til tomorrow i can unleash the dogs to bring me back first so I can find you and bring you back to the way you were before get you ...

  war whore listen on youtube or here   once upon a time I was a war whore under the flags of hate under the preaching of waste = I challenged you once, dropped you twice, to bounced back thrice = semblance & deceit tempting fools to engage the battle-hardened colors of your red hair, pink outlines, blue eyes, sleek bones that hold you up, and the colored skin of milk, that consumed my stamina = I pathed to you over dead bodies, a bridge we built, battling others' ideologies, deciphering the waves of your laughter when you fell in my path, you exhausted, myself wounded, nothing more to do than stare. = I vowed to hate you just for today So you'll hate me tomorrow, a stress trial, gauging pulses. I'll wait for the day after, to see who's succumbing to the penances of this tug war? = Did you know that love is a whore from the inside? I should stab it some more with the blunt side of the dementia of belief. = I haven't missed you yet, you neve...