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  unforgiven listen on youtube or here unforgiven one day you'll feel a disconnect around you, as if the world has betrayed you, the emptiness of searching for that one person that's searching for you in return, in between the intervals of those days remember me = my adore laly, let me tell you about loneliness and pain , you see, no one bypasses its treachery, as we grow older no one can say they lived without pain = it's the salt of life, spiking flavor into us to see, feel and taste life better or different it makes some of us hypocrites covering our grievances with fake smiles it tattoo's a scar on the heart validating our humanity = i have certified your name into me I just want my name on you. so I've thought of the unforgiven = laly, because the lord has the good books, prophets and chants I've decided to make these poems for you as your book I've decorated them for you with my voice as chants and I'll spread them as your personal prophet and wit...

Duality listen on youtube or here duality I have dual domiciles ,  I'm from over there, but I belong here,  I have split identities , dual names , dates of birth , unknown dates of death ,  one mandated by the lord and one for you to script  I have dual languages ,  one for the earthlings & one for you my adore dual feelings I deal with,  hope & failure, take your pick to manipulate. I have dual imaginations centering around you,    you were born from the best of me, discretion advised, it's concentrated on my past, from my needs  that I molded into the shape of you with some impurities a definite and over here I've come to see what my mind has begotten  I wouldn't know what I've meant or created from over there. I witnessed my oath of loyalty travel on raven wings ,  coming from a different timeline where I once was so receive my needs well, as spun flirt or confessions consider my duality. any of my dualities could've ...

  Untraceable v2 listen on youtube or here       Untraceable  v1 listen on youtube or here   Untraceable Reflective eye movements darts into the unknown I saw it through a breathing being like me    Prompting to question my lost attachment The theft of my serenity She: Being the Quest puzzles me, but satisfies  I think I have a trace of her   I join the Bedouins serenading the rababa strings  absorbing tales of ether life gone  Recalling spirits of ancient martyrs  I simmer with the smoke and fire, basking between sand dunes,  until the light of the early morning  Repeating songs that depletes the soul I love for her to turn me on  to trace the history of that adorable face  The glowing tales of a thousand nights in the Negev desert rejuvenates the weary, where poets justify lyrics over bonfires and Godfathers of poetry validate who's been hurt the most.  & every story is mine, do you thi...

Roaming grave burn listen on youtube or here it was a fallout plan from the beginning now banished in my roaming grave I'm bleeding since you've left wounded lungs fending off stale air around me despite the burning cold eyes,   you still look so lovely without me,   I know I’m far in a roaming grave my skin is holding me together grazing away, growing withered grasping dried pages of our past   browsing pictures that converted into regret,   roaming deeper into a blank future the shade of your lips lacks the feelings now remind me of the flavor, please I could tell the pain is infecting me,    was I that reckless?   I couldn’t recall faith in me then, unlike now when it's stripped away my wisdom left my crave crusade,   between the jagged edges of Questions & the softness of deceiving answers I have proof that I still adore you     for one more try to conquer you peacefully   come to me or from here, I'll crawl to you, my...

Rose of Judah (dec 2025) listen on youtube or here  Rose of Judah (New 2025 Laly's Version) let her play amongst the pulps and flowers swaying with the breeze   contagious laughter brushes off catcalls from thorns   strolling between carnations , daisy's and jasmines   with an entourage of birds, bees, and butterflies she blends in with ease   I can take this into the far side  bury my face in the colors of life & subside I'm eclipsed and dazed by that beautiful face  i see why the lord annointed her a world blessing What do I see in nature?  a Judaean rose escapade, extending the elixir of her smile equalizing my epidemic when the Hebrew dialect rolls of her tongue forever, those beautiful eyes will her vision ever target me? Oh, how I wish to be victimized by her  so let her run barefooted  like a soft current between the hills  as I envy nature gracing her presence my Judaean rose the colors of humanity ble...

 friends listen on youtube or here my heart is not beating much, but i can hear it condemning me where do I start from when all my friends are gone? i can only trust the dead because they can't harm me anymore at the peak of loneliness, I ask myself, how am I loved? what is it, and which version should I trust they all give me the same feelings, but the end is always disappointing from the closest of them all to the furthest it starts out with ordinary trust, then it changes gears midway betrayal seems like the order of life; it seems like there's a conflict of interest every day seems like the last as I got old, I never learned, in life, there's a different lesson every day Hope is a killer for a shallow soul adored as a wealth mine for the greedy I might be a fringe to be served on someone's plate for an anniversary... I've made it this far I've been living the moments since my arrival, to say hello, I've got to go back to the land I have wandered off fro...

Disease & Void listen on youtube or here My dear, my adore let me update you on the feelings under my skin, I can stir the relapsing chronic passion the infection you gifted me that's coming back like a pestering friend down in a hole leading to an exit into the void lay on me a sheet or two of poems I wrote, your photo is requesting my trust again crawling with memories of a walk with you in the past we walked through the valley of shadow of death I had no fear but of you leading me astray again from finding a way into you well, It's a troubled time when my useless spirit is turned on not any closer than before, not far from your bed either, every filtered moment has a phase obstructing my judgment marking the final screenshots of my stalled day everything is still the same   except for that sparkle in your eyes   my infatuation with your potent smile    curls into a fetal stance of what's coming next behind these feelings comes the hummings of the kabbala sp...

  Hallelujah Laly listen on youtube or here      Hallelujah Baby (alternate version)  listen on youtube or here   I’ve scoured the books roamed the holy places in times of war & peace in faith and unison The masses praised the good lord chanting hallelujah = i vowed to wage war from a mile away then I read your eyes, I prayed for peace for me with you I greeted you with a smile you had me at Hallelujah = I’ve reviewed the history of your affairs, scanned the Geography of your body, infiltrated the spelled walls protecting you I’ve watched you from a third-eye view,   through my eyes, being a sinner & saint in lands of imagination dreams are lighter than gravity it’s a see-and-belief dilemma…. in the dark rooms of club hallelujah = i tattooed the thick air around you spoke to you in dialects of foreign tongues I gave mass, embracing your waist under the rain I tasted the gloss off your lips, a serum of hope and the flesh imprinted me into ...

Simple human, beta version 1.0   listen on youtube or here laly , I'm just a simple human, beta version 1.0. Look at me! I was designed and created in an earlier time the mighty word from above was (be), and I've become When humans were primitive & simple, beta version 1.0 = but somehow, somehow we share the same God, but unlike you, my adore god created you on another level, an elite class there wasn’t any time restraint or lack of resources it was all about perfection, not for my generation not for us, the primitive. = but I ask, did god really complete his masterpiece, hand crafting you, creating you as intended, or merely abandoned the plan midway cautious from what you could become? What would I know? I'm a simple primitive human, beta version 1.0 = You captivate the masses ... to be praised, showered with words and I'm spoiled about the little things I find in you .... to ask the stupid questions... how do I praise the lord with you in the middle? A simple-m...

  Serious games  (new) v2  listen on youtube or here here  --------------   serious games v1 listen on youtube or here I flirted with the space between us releasing my thoughts over you I took a head dive, Expressing my concern Let me whisper to home base you raised the stakes, so i Brushed romance aside fueling the humble side of me smoking your photos like a cigarette Dropping your vices like bad ashes I believe you don’t believe in my serious games I Stained my lungs reciting the oath Stitched up the patience to support my bleeding faith Inflated favoritism for a high ride alongside you still, I believe you don’t believe in me THE WORD HAS SPUN, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? Manipulating RUMOURS FROM THE GRAPEVINE ? I know you've been taunting consequences like a punchline joke    that's how I believe you don’t believe in my serious games. on the stake of your games, I burned my plans I kept my cautions multiplying on standby for a final showdown but Yo...

  Laly free listen on youtube or here v1 or here v2   Laly free Someone asked me once why I dedicate my thoughts and poems to laly . well The answer is simple you haven't seen her through my eyes you see, once she sears her smile into your imagination it's not simple to forget or to let go. to heal my mind, I write down every detail I can purging her from my soul, I imitate the polars of nature , nourishing spring harvesting summer, withering autumn and the dying winter , my one time funeral, or so I thought . but the laws of nature has a repeating flaw cycle, spring comes through,  breathing life into the earth, and those neglected dead seeds comes back kicking with life, i'll never be laly free. summer flourishes over the landscapes of my being the ghost of laly comes back to life again invading the privacy of my dying days bringing me back to life fullfiling the vacency of absence with her beautiful face i'll never be laly free. there are no more losses for me t...

Feed listen on youtube or here Let me watch you the way I want let me trace the root of my sickness I might find a hatch door to hate you Let me hear you whisper a cool breeze numbing my consciousness to sleep. You just love the darkness taking over me so I yield to your phantoms for a night truce, resting these weary inflaming bones, = my imagination accepts instances as they come, I saw a surviving homeless metaphor on the sidewalk from the other side, it recalled its survival & stories of faraway females , reflecting on times, carving words carefully. = disappearing into the night, as city spies , as third guests , walking karmas , blank tales of nobody yet , the blessed boys , the wicked girls hyping the ghost party in downtown Eden waiting to be fed. = In a lawless god's land , nothing's changed. the balance was still there you just possessed both sides tipping one over the other, I'm still searching the damp morning hours for a hatch door to disappear so the...

Laly's Crystallized Smile v2 listen on youtube or here  crystallized smile v1  listen on youtube or here Laly's crystallized smile I believed in sowing the seeds, so I harvested memories Absorbing details of your face & body Of clips, reels, stills, 3D shapes of you If you suddenly disconnect from me And it wasn't me when it happened You walked away, you had no words for goodbye A devious heist of nameless days The outrage of a weakened man I praised the lord through you in grievance Measures of revenge taken in silent prayers I still love the little gap between your two front teeth You still owe me a crystallized smile Scales of forgiveness depends on the weight of the grief So, when will I see you again, short of a smile you owe Why, why are your sweet mouth smiles tight-lipped My need traces back to a banished, pitied soul Hurt is packed by the dozens Some spares of hate, two pills to be exact I need to see the little gap between your two front teeth It's ...

 Someone listen on youtube or here Someone Someone came to me I was tired of attending today Someone whispered to me I have years to go without you Someone looked at me confronting my fears Someone reminded me of your name that's why your presence still lingers on Someone touched me, a proxy from you But time recoils & bounces, it never erases, just flexible. Someone held me, it had your signature squeeze Captivating me Someone let me go as you usually do You had all of me still & faces chased all hope for longing It’s another day for passersby to share what i already know I see someone coming to me my kind of scene all over again Let’s begin with you You had all of me in every one that came to me They were your angel’s hands holding sanity process in check I’ll hold on just to say i held you once For the sake of the euphoria Of seeing you again Someone will find my body floating In the muddy waters at wave break At the daily rit...