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beautiful drowning listen on youtube or here I'm condemned & the weight of the burden calls for her, the savior, the holy to undo this filthy soul of mine my evil was sick to the bones buried in its own perdition needing a cleansing, needing a beautiful drowning in the corner of her living room   pictures of pictures nailed on the walls   but there to remind me of taboos for the trip to the bottom my fascination is overdue absorbing lullabies in the form of baby breaths & pacified by black kabbala hymns hypnotized under the gaze of dreamy eyes resistance gauges read empty, I drowned, relinquishing past faults. at the bottom, I was held as a begotten soul overhauling a new me I entered the temple, immersed in her beauty sins are forgiven peacefully in this beautiful drowning.   something's howling and shouting from the walls, weakened by their own conviction a wish for one more try to live one more moment   at the edge of an end of just one more drowning she'...

disposition  listen on youtube or here Know my disposition it's a language lost like dead tongues   and my wasted blood is on your lips  desperate to feel serenity   knowing I am a man lost in your solitude  eager to greet you with thirst & desires,  welcoming your quenches & commodities  stuck between the polar opposites of infinite ends  it's more than what I can take of the female light the notion of evicting hollow spaces with a laughter announcing you’re back is welcoming a glory-era the warmth from within you   is best without a rendezvous without any shame to help me feel more than this imagination is lighter than gravity it never touches the grounds  resuscitation always backfires dreams will always stay there with you  a messenger emerges from the darkness  holding me with vague intentions navigating the nocturnal side sneaking the borders of make-believe plant a moist seed of hope in your honor.  it s...

pretender listen on youtube or here bury the dead in the hungry grounds those who dared to run across your minefields poor hysterical lives, claiming to be your friend, eager for the moment when today touches tomorrow but your promises vanishes just like our miserable ambitions you'll become yesterday's memories and tomorrow's hope all over again I'm a man with an empty today waiting for a new tomorrow I feel estranged starting from the bottom pretending since yesterday that I’m not missing you exploring cavities in my life somethings replaces others achievements are grounded destinations become a challenge, even faith lost interest in me pretending it was something without you and without you pretending is empty some said I was too rough sharing my head with loaded silence the presence of silence is waiting to fulfill its emptiness... and leaving is a constant problem you see, Every blood drip comes from a vein Every bird homes back to a nest Babies are detac...

Broken  listen on youtube or here if so graciously, oh queen of mine may I squeeze the soul into rings to fall on the standing points I've longed to understand I was and still am in a dumbfounded mood   about the spotlight around me and never on Buzzed in anticipation to be what I'm not intended to.. but never to find my inner peace that rests on someone else's words. I don't want to be broken. if so, kindly, oh queen of mine chew me to shreds feed me into your veins to roam all about and to tell you this is what I have for you it might be useful somehow. expressing that I'm so deeply imprisoned by my dogma , I was tarnished by the odd years, that "unfaithful" became my cloak because you wanted me broken.   from me to inside of you   I change from state to state, believing your harshness is raw love, and a test of my resilience but I time-out from you  on the outskirts of your senses to heal,   not far, just in case I feel the addicting itches I'm al...

  deranged moments  listen on youtube or here in these deranged moments it's not time to be friends, we need to talk about it & silence is not the way I Crave your mind that browsed cataloged pages of my life witnessing me living & dying many tales I can afford to suffer with you... Let me seize the moment to begin it's time you come of age . So come undone I knew there was something wrong, should've told me you wanted someone to blame but you left me far behind now I have to watch you suffer alone. I felt the mutiny in my veins so receive me before I rupture these plans   like the birth of ink on paper erupting the pen's tip to breathe and call me before you exhale, when no one's around at your super hour encrypt the distance between us lay down resistance for me I wish you had never kept me waiting by the backyard bay with inert gangster lullabies , pondering back as I remembered the graveyard shift and all its nuances stagnant questions & dull answe...