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Live the Lie listen on youtube or here live the lie version 1   live the lie version 2  predictions from Crystal balls & prophecies about you fail me somethings harboring the core of what you are to know what it's like to be with you .....   I'm a couple of miles away from my headstone to be freed from the path of lies I've taken I dreamt of answers to questions I didn't want to be part of...   scenarios that I rode through a place called heaven   but I couldn't stop for the scenery...   I smelled the breeze, but it wouldn't stick to my senses to inhale a boost of nirvana to be okay for a while more I'm in sync with your anthem, " Come Together ." solidifying your status amongst the masses,   but I don't see myself included neglecting that the condemned and damned like me are on the other end of your consciousness I've meant to be spiritually born to reign under a peaceful sky, but I've aged as sluggish omens came to light I was ...

seven hours late   listen on youtube or here my last seven hours falling off the clock scrapping down the wall, bidding farewell. my blurred eyes gazing at a photo, it too, tethered into madness, sight fading, all the lines and colors of you. Slowly draining. Your photo. Now, a blank white paper canvas , a last glance intoxicates whatever moves me. = if it's any comfort, I might want to hug my odes to you, recite my broken blunders, epic failures stand on my crooked past, reprimand convicted crippled fingers, that caused you to be gone, a fruitless remedy, I can tell by the way I'm missing you. = wanting to be wrapped in between layers of your dreams your breath as musical notes, in tune with magnetic symphonies   dedicated to this melancholy.   Show the love of god. I heard so much about it.   = so peel the skin off reminiscing words, let the couped-up dreams spill on these dying days, let them wander your streets, pace time away. You can take this guilty in an as...

empty of you listen on youtube or here in a river, I lingered empty anticipating vibrations from the east, a missing part from you to reach out, incoming memories suffocated the headaches stabilizing the message for a minute Waiting for anyone else of the thousands faces of my past to recognize me, time lapsed without a hand in sight. it flooded me that I was once a child, the gleam I had left my face,   left my choice after a whisper of fate, after I dipped my feet into you. I craved to mine & extract a deposit, some relic souvenirs A palm print on my chest A token for my final trip Was it too much? Money comes and go It pays for a beautiful funeral, and it stops at the grave's edge. But you you're engraved into my bones, tattooed into my mistakes legitimizing my sins A testament for god when he judges me I'm proud of the sin that was inspired by you the lord also should be proud of me. For he taught us he is all love & giving And so am I, honesty. I'm a littl...

Freak Healer freak healer v1 listen on youtube or here   freak healer version 2  listen on youtube or here version 1 lyrics  (version 2 lyrics below)  freak healer, Deja Vu dealer , I lay me down this beautiful mutilation, wanting sleight of hand healing explore this freak, contemporary medicine is a joke, some call it deformity, but you call it art I love your patronage . = Knock the voodoo doll off the wall spit the spells on me, light the fire, pin the sharpened needles hug that strange replica of me it suits me just fine call me back into you, I'm careful about what I wish for, my lovely freak healer = I'm at the kalfou crossroads , I was wrongfully laid with the saints, gravely bent out of shape because of the shades of my faith . = look at me down in this hole, bothered, tame the shapeshifter , it fears you, the shape of a killer = black magic fidgety bruised by failed castings , amend the breakdown nullify my failures, bless your heart,   my sweet fre...

beautiful drowning listen on youtube or here I'm condemned & the weight of the burden calls for her, the savior, the holy to undo this filthy soul of mine my evil was sick to the bones buried in its own perdition needing a cleansing, needing a beautiful drowning in the corner of her living room   pictures of pictures nailed on the walls   but there to remind me of taboos for the trip to the bottom my fascination is overdue absorbing lullabies in the form of baby breaths & pacified by black kabbala hymns hypnotized under the gaze of dreamy eyes resistance gauges read empty, I drowned, relinquishing past faults. at the bottom, I was held as a begotten soul overhauling a new me I entered the temple, immersed in her beauty sins are forgiven peacefully in this beautiful drowning.   something's howling and shouting from the walls, weakened by their own conviction a wish for one more try to live one more moment   at the edge of an end of just one more drowning she'...

disposition  listen on youtube or here Know my disposition it's a language lost like dead tongues   and my wasted blood is on your lips  desperate to feel serenity   knowing I am a man lost in your solitude  eager to greet you with thirst & desires,  welcoming your quenches & commodities  stuck between the polar opposites of infinite ends  it's more than what I can take of the female light the notion of evicting hollow spaces with a laughter announcing you’re back is welcoming a glory-era the warmth from within you   is best without a rendezvous without any shame to help me feel more than this imagination is lighter than gravity it never touches the grounds  resuscitation always backfires dreams will always stay there with you  a messenger emerges from the darkness  holding me with vague intentions navigating the nocturnal side sneaking the borders of make-believe plant a moist seed of hope in your honor.  it s...

pretender  listen on youtube or here bury the dead in the hungry grounds   those who dared to run across your minefields   poor hysterical lives, claiming to be your friend, =  those eager for the moment when today touches tomorrow but your promises vanishes just like our miserable ambitions   you'll become yesterday's memories and tomorrow's hope all over again I'm a man with an empty today waiting for a new tomorrow I feel estranged starting from the bottom pretending since yesterday that I’m not missing you = exploring cavities in my life somethings replaces others achievements are grounded destinations become a challenge, even faith lost interest in me pretending it was something without you = and without you pretending is empty some said I was too rough sharing my head with loaded silence the presence of silence is waiting to fulfill its emptiness... = and leaving is a constant problem you see, Every blood drip comes from a vein Every bird homes back t...

Broken  listen on youtube or here if so graciously, oh queen of mine may I squeeze the soul into rings to fall on the standing points I've longed to understand I was and still am in a dumbfounded mood   about the spotlight around me and never on Buzzed in anticipation to be what I'm not intended to.. but never to find my inner peace that rests on someone else's words. I don't want to be broken. if so, kindly, oh queen of mine chew me to shreds feed me into your veins to roam all about and to tell you this is what I have for you it might be useful somehow. expressing that I'm so deeply imprisoned by my dogma , I was tarnished by the odd years, that "unfaithful" became my cloak because you wanted me broken.   from me to inside of you   I change from state to state, believing your harshness is raw love, and a test of my resilience but I time-out from you  on the outskirts of your senses to heal,   not far, just in case I feel the addicting itches I'm al...

  deranged moments  listen on youtube or here in these deranged moments it's not time to be friends, we need to talk about it & silence is not the way I Crave your mind that browsed cataloged pages of my life witnessing me living & dying many tales I can afford to suffer with you... Let me seize the moment to begin it's time you come of age . So come undone I knew there was something wrong, should've told me you wanted someone to blame but you left me far behind now I have to watch you suffer alone. I felt the mutiny in my veins so receive me before I rupture these plans   like the birth of ink on paper erupting the pen's tip to breathe and call me before you exhale, when no one's around at your super hour encrypt the distance between us lay down resistance for me I wish you had never kept me waiting by the backyard bay with inert gangster lullabies , pondering back as I remembered the graveyard shift and all its nuances stagnant questions & dull answe...