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digital affair listen on youtube or here   Laly it's midnight and flickering screens brought you forth in a carousel of slideshows and I entertained both sides of us in comfortable browser skins doing what I've wanted you to do to sit and talk with me to smile and laugh to tell me about your day your dreams and ambitions I could offer you a drink to unwind if it wasn't for the monitor screen dividing us Artificial intelligence created an almost-you minus the impact of flesh & bones minus the spirit of life compacted down to just simple numbers, digital forms of ones and o's. the Best that I can do without you without the breathing. I filled the background with movie soundtracks I adopted an epic story of romance and we played that well and other times we played as an adventurous hero and heroine I filtered your attitude to struggle for a bit and you showed resilience so converted your prefrable type to choose me in the end out of everybody else, I followed links a...

Hello laly  listen on youtube or here hello laly I know things aren’t as clear as they should've been but I'm in dire to explain or apologize for being so vague however you may see it. so I composed a poem for you I reminisced to your voice from the files of my mind, and i said to myself, wow what a beautiful voice, angelic but I overhauled the poem, inching closer to match that wholesome tone and vibe and i validated my thoughts through your voice over and over reconstructing the poem again and again until your voice became a calling from beyond refining this poem into a worship chant to reach where ever you are 125 but i concluded that you don’t deserve to be loved. Love is beneath you, love is for human consumption only you deserve something higher and stronger than love . so Laly, in the minds of trailblazers you are polaris so I hereby anoint you the absolute crave Baby laly, it dawned on me that god speaks to us not through commandments, but through his inspirational ...

  sporadic worship thoughts watch on youtube or here   laly let me hold the center of make-believe  because meditation numbs the brain   so here's a song I've sung to pacify myself with I've relocate the memorized lyrics to a secret cache  I'll relay to you the vibes and humms in case you need to find out  why you're here with me in these shameless thoughts why I'm in the distance ignored even though you're in my head? at times you trouble me as I stand waiting or as i lay underneath the tree of patience you evade me when I quizz my fate I don't need a chemical high what's in me are suffice. and sometimes i receive over-expanded mixed signals but one day you'll understand why your photographs are memory gateways to cherish to behold if you could only see and feel how my suicidal words strive to annotate when it trouble me against me demanding what have i done? to me forgiveness or redemption are not sanctuaries of stones not a sacred di...

  Laly's shadow games watch on youtube or here   refracted faces peaked from behind glass windows slowly loading Laly's shadow I had a vision of ringside attractions the game started with a triggered flipped coin toss === staring down a right hook of a heavy option thunderclap waves of thick air eased the concern just in time to flee below the trophy belt feeding on the neon lights from above when the bell rings   === imprisoned by a creed I fashioned and tomorrow is coming on strong to collect a reminder of a pledged plan   === Raiders & Preys is her favorite challenge game her eyes light up coming to me as a raider as a hunter playing slow to get me fast, collecting my carcass as a prized prey crucifying it as a gift on a birthday wall. === I want chances in the roulette of life , to be plucked for a wish, stuffed in a vase washed away by a flood or a simple gift on Valentine’s Day   === I'm not dead because I've adored her in an offset of time in a ...

Broadway Soundtrack listen on youtube or here Between birth & death We live and die with lost themes sometimes hope is in us obvious or hidden, often it's carried by others in a gap of time i found mine in a broadway show It’s there that I met you swaying onstage, Just me, myself & I in a single-cubicle seat admiring you Imagination is an understatement linking me to a short power trip ride i felt myself teleported onstage Soaked in rough dreams the touch of a soft beast the touch of a soft beast you have the star you are this classic broadway drama the combination is so subtle It’s a crazy place, my dear but the chapters took a turn consumed by a swan dance and hummed odysseies captivated by a new emotion leaving myself behind in a drought implicated & decieved by your relentless moves i couldn't tell the difference anymore i'm still looking into everything, ignoring myself in the mirror keeping my head in the play, fine tuning this funky horn a soundtrack I ...

 ashes & dust listen on youtube or here laly it's ashes to ashes dust to dust everything is dead and gone. everything you touch in me burns laly i've forsaken my soul to be dead and gone. ashes to ashes dust to dust i regret what I know shadowy guesses taking chances knowing you at the edge of 25 i was had at hello i was had at hello by that beautiful smile pieces of addicted dreams I trapped punished under my skin I injected the blueprint of your face into my veins an epiphany of breakaway songs shaming my alphabet towns into an insurrection tearing down erected walls in a grudge migrating its way out and i followed them like a hound-dog to seek you and like my slurred figures of speech switched before birth a case of nostalgia blues four decks deep escaping voices roll out slow too old to flow, just like me too slow to lock in your glimmer my remaining days will suffer searching your path and i reminese how it took a callous heart to break a solid core in the forgotten ...

  blind euphoria state listen on youtube or here Daylight departs in a stalemate oddity.   your shadow arrives as a fictitious night mode tenuously hovering by my window frame   you, moving a bit slowly in my head   and you buried the sinful seed in the dead red hill by my house What are the chances that I’m blind? Can I feel you for myself, touching your warm skin with my cold fingertips? A shortcut to navigate a soul I embrace your smile with my lips I crawl the mouth slowly upper and lower, Edge to edge I Read the messages like Braille . Between the parentheses of your cheeks that frame your mouth through the pressure of your exhaling breaths I confess to all that I’ve done Wandering around here carrying depriving thoughts It was not in the plan I’m never the same I never badly needed someone as I do you to help me feel What are the chances that I have convicted myself for the sake of you? I ignored the verdict though I'm blind when I need to keep myself away ...

 abuse   listen on youtube or here abuse   Kiss my wounds & I'll digest your lies delete all that's been done & let's start over one more time   Grease the next promise under the sun   Let's redo the nursery rhymes of Shoots and Ladders     Color the eyelids for disguise   change the name & sip from tears   With a new set of friends to use You have what it takes to abuse  restrain me from the soft, feminine violence   I’ve abandoned my soul when it failed you   just the basic fact   Follow me to where it hurts   over here with bad company  In a corner, wishing you to share my disposition I'm at fault for not telling you What would I do if pleasure were in my hand But for now, your abuse is chewing chances away I’ve been where you wanted   Done what you’ve asked quenched from your dreams   I’ve touched your blues   I've observed you on the horizon above But that cloud isn't bl...

 deflower my soul    listen on youtube or here today as before, I stand here waiting I've lost the taste of goodbyes & hellos   yearning to deflower my virgin soul with you I'm burying rumored pages in the afternoon   news about bones on a gun dirt squeezed from stones   prayers from a nun hung in the air but you're on the flip side   eyes on skin & boys having you for fun   so what’s being born   innocence or porn   the word has spun   what have you done? time has been carving the hands of people I know it’s strange these thoughts lead me to mummified moments it was so thoughtful of my dreams to turn up the volume to hear you so many times solitude has been leading people on to guess that I’m saving my purity for you to deflower it’s all becoming a single ambition to be virgin-free circulating black market rumors about you stolen from grapevines   were they sold in bazaars for money or for the validation crown is it...

 bow down    listen on youtube or here bow down bow over my aspiring soul, the healer has arrived to realign my heartbeat spread a smile for sustenance lock the eyelids shut bend the head at the neck keep faith open wide for the kiss.   she’s about to bless as she comes closer to perform the rituals   giving birth to the moment I inhale deeply into my stale lungs the fresh air she exhales to show me around myself gift wrap me as wanted memories had shaped me well for this moment so far.   so I bow down she comes to me slow thunder she comes to me with static crawling ahead she comes to me with her hair down time runs on a countdown until her lips embrace mine in a gentle crush, releasing edible venom feeding the addiction the honor of being the chosen one, ever so gracious and rumors had it that the less I have, the little I want, but that's a lie the more she gave, the longer I needed it. so I bow down bow down bow over my perishing prayers , little use d...