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sick drop listen on youtube or here I.... who am I to you? a bounce in your head  another depleted soul on the exit  an over welcomed nostalgia on the burn out blindsided for today, forgotten tomorrow   I.... what am i to you?  a sick drop on your bucket list i invited you here in my dream to confirm that those flavored traps you laid burned my plans  plans to peel off that beautiful face of yours  to see the real you that despises me because rumors about us split in opposite directions rumors about me scarred my reflection rumors about you conscripted those with a death wish I, I want to restore my status in your head  the echoes of your moaning voices healed no one  and my greedy soul is still starving so make me filthy to your taste your favorite layout anything that makes you want me    I, I ask what do you want with me?  is it to infect me with loneliness?  I'm immune to that by now, being a fool through the aimless baited...

untitled story listen on youtube or here I, one of the few and proud fools entering your arena Conscripted by loneliness  Just because I got drugged by your smile I, by my own resolve challenged to capture you  or something of you  but where did i go wrong ? did i give off the wrong scent? waiting for you in that 2nd Ave smoke shop  i just needed someone to help me feel  i never intended to cross you i was addicted to tales of your trips away and days at home and i was violated by your smile overdosing me when i rest my head  i anticipated you between the hello's and goodbye's every other day  so Hold me now, my facial expressions lost it's shape shifting abilities   malfunctioning and now it's set only to greet you  I feel the contagion molesting my heart   so come lay next to me discover anthologies beneath my bones   let me infect you with sterile pre & post-us drafts & memories traces of stuttering clips a...

memory clout listen on youtube or here  I touched my thoughts and my soul caved in it's a victim on demand for the sake of memories   I obay the ordinary hate that comes with the territory granting her A smile for leisure a touch of empathy  but how much would she feel if it means dusting off the layers of years visiting those childhood days  I Criss cross the 80 interstate a trip to the old homestead to lullaby rock town i played reels of memories scrolling on the windshield the resurrected cold faces  reflected along the highway pouring sense into what went wrong I was hesitant to take me back to yesterday going back there to the backyard, for closure where memories accumulated from childhood through graduation we ran around the block and we ran the clock  growing up so fast and we played on the swings drank lemonade under the peach tree, talked about us on the porch and said our hello's & goodbyes by the front door in the summer  and throug...

Tania after 6   listen on youtube or here  tania, you're never home until after 6  you pass me by lonely with your elegant walk   you come tired beaten by the day leaving words & people behind day in, day out, always after 6   you can’t lay your head down, without the thousand of thoughts sailing away you’re still looking for that someone to smile to you & with you and it seems like yesterday, that you’ve found that someone,  but he changed just like the seasons, like the pre-yesterdays.   you pass by broken, I've read the hurt in your eyes. picking five numbers of your choice , one for good luck for a lotto chance, but it also fails you  your slender fingers embracing the pen like a newborn baby  carving the words to your favorite song,  killing me softly it’s hard to give birth to words  when your lips feel time is stagnant curling up on that cold bed & gently scrolling the lines of a novel,  w...

down in the Caribbean   listen on youtube or here down in the Caribbean where desires meet reality,   ashes of an affair in the air   and dreams of choice comes at a premium  blessed by the teenage moon in the sky's watch tower   a voodoo flame warming up for a private lap dance   the high waves taming the wildly tanned & ivory bodies  but you, but you tania, blending your chocolate shade with the night theme  a classic country of ancient glory   vengeful vampires, ballads & serenades   spells from candles, nibbling love bites,  snakes & crocodiles in human form mingling with the bunnies & cats     a true beloved in the arms of a breathing demon   a voice in the cozy corner of voodoo dancers   while the moon sheds light on the mood   guiding me to your shed in the backyard   near a perfect circle of burnt amber aroma  ...

good dead day listen on youtube or here  blood is oxidized by my stagnant feelings     failing to touch you beneath your dirty thoughts drowning the suns energy of the day with this and that    anticipating a playful moon by night  whisper to me the basic fact and and I'll follow you to where it hurts  and if we can't get it done, im okay, it'll still be another good dead day let's lay in the suns courtyard the day after let's toss horse shoes on what’s left of every loose end i close my eyes for the night's arrival just like yesterday i pause to stay and welcome you to the best of what my dreams can do voices & memories reflected through photographs,  once upon a time you promised me what’s to come i found nothing but you staring back in denial,  asking me why i bled for you?   i gave you what i could, while you waited for the unknown showdown and me? me? a day without anything done it was a good dead day, and i'm still ok...

 Apologies to Laly listen on youtube or here Apologies to Baby   listen on youtube or here laly let me explain what happens in my head remembering you I write what I feel, what stirs me & I envy my words   observing them lying neatly on coffin rows in a graveyard of blank lines without feelings   a useless port if not destined to you  I wish I was ink, creating letters guiding the words to infiltrate you   track where they go   relate how they touch & make you feel correct them according to your mood swings  (all i wanted is for this whole world to see you through my eyes, and my eyes alone) you see, these words make you smile, content they get to touch you before I do   and I envy them, and it should've been me not the alphabet   I want to explore & live your mind to see how your imagination will play with me but it's a far fetched scenario, i know.  but i posses random thoughts  tail...

B ernadine's Moves listen on youtube or here    so what do you know about Bernadine 's moves? let me explain I have a date with a diva so i marked home it's a new addiction I emptied the rumors on sinners highway dropped all my unused intentions i scrapped the last headache, making room for what's to come = this is my kinda scene this is my time = I picked up my best mood on paradise road I'm saving my twisted mind for the trancing moves of Bernadine = the urgency of my voice flooded the airwaves ahead so i texted a smile in slow motion. = my timeline is filtered with some notches, but still all my stories are misdirected, i lost track of them somewhere between my mouth & her ears did it mix up with the bad crowd of chats & rumors...?   i watched as she captivate the screen with short clips the rhythms were spreading haphazardly through the screen = we can't have everything in life, but we can for sure enjoy them as they pass I saw her i...

  55 vs 25 listen on youtube or here in my highs & lows    I felt the shivers that anchored me so unmistakably in your appetite. I gazed the December sun    a mirrored burning like the inside of me quietly   slave to love without affinity   mistaken my ability   Damned me   framing time when you’re here   for arduous answers to simple questions.   So, How do I feel seeing your face? languages disappear I feel paused, I'm just a backdrop for my autobiography ….  I just want to be back in one piece.  in a crimson color pool with a 3D deep wallpaper backdrop there in the seams of my breathing   silence speaks to me somehow. so mind my replies if you feel more than many,  they're signs of loneliness,  tales of grievances ,  subdue them if you must,  proofread my stories over a burning plate,  how I felt you on those days,  remember my drafts, ...

 stay in my head   listen on youtube or here (updated lyrics)   listen on youtube or here         stay in my head laly     stay in my head baby stay in my head laly I was rotated into the portal of your eyes  from the last epiphany spot i knew searching for your soul in a maze following your voices inspired to witness the second coming I Navigated the paths to a place I dreamt  to the last frontier of an Uncharted territory   in the distance, I spotted a running silhouette of you.  An omen of what’s to come if you don't receive me from the corner of my mind  This is how I go out tonight  sharing a piece of me, to give you peace  trading parts of me for places with you  keeping the shell of my heart, I'll grant you the core take your time abusing it as you please just stay in my head  play or reject it as you see fit trash it in your toy box pain is always around loaded all wrong everyone ha...

  schism  v2   =====================================  schism v1   schism v1  1 bound my voice I don't need it listen to my hums vibrating through my skin in Morris code style translate my rhymes  it reflects what I can't confess i feel the schisms coming  2 I live through the night wandering your silk hair with my fingers, I stream through strands one by one reading their DNA like braille  breaking codes in the creases of my palms, which dream needs me to belong  I'm in a schism mode  3 I have the black & white  I need the colors in between from you, I need to be found and I'll be fine so open yourself up more lets discuss what we can do i feel the schisms hanging around 4 if you feel the urge of the schism coming,  just hold on to me ill be fine shut out the thought of opening your eyes &  burying me in the morning,  I object to being a passing memory by afternoon keep your eyes closed, release your...

W elcome to Earth Laly listen on youtube or here   Hello Welcome to earth we're from dust you're one of us.... you're just far more perfected anonymous animals we are with deceptive intentions until we depose the false faces, we're more comfortable being strangers guising egocentric beliefs ravaging each other in Gramercy park by the pool you're just more innocently devious. seduction & snacks in the blood house distracts the honey girls, spin a mouthful of poetic air a pass to a land of imaginations for those escaping zoo nations blow the ashes in my face where you become a rumor. on a hypnotic journey lets trick the band of thieves postpone the joy ride into the wildland maze for later days lets shop artifacts of the dead let's walk the blvd with the stiff & beautiful you've become evanescence migrating into the minds of the clouds for the thirsty & bothered seeking hedonic adaptations like me for an example i lost my orie...

Come as you are v2 listen on youtube or here  Come as you are v1 listen on youtube or here   Come as you are Let me step aside with my disease A disposition familiar with all whom adored you When you come around with your blue dress Your friends stand out as thorns guarding a rose Self-respect is naked; you can't see me Privacy is dead, yet I'm breathing I know the taboo words ... our names together I can't speak them to you about what they mean The advice that you give are for friends, so Let me review your jagged-shaped heart Let me consume that friendship disease That keeps me locked outside Let me clear the path to inch my way closer to you Come as you are, but not as a friend I want bloody lips, lying smiles Contagious words, disarming thoughts Absorbing it all I'd rather be an acquaintance Fighting off ancient disturbing memories Flowing with the trending times Come as you are Turn off the gray color filter Turn on your cool brown eyes, look Let your s...

ending the end v2 listen on youtube or here   ending the end v1 listen on youtube or here it took me forever to realize that it doesn’t matter who has left, hurt or betrayed me, or why i ended up being a part-time lover for every lost soul, = or why i'm filling everyone's gap by choice, hoping for a steady full time face then i wondered why no one is filling in my empty life... why the frontiers of my feelings migrate with them when they leave... = I should’ve consoled them, and ran away with what was left of me, hunt for shelter away from the fleeting days. = even though I fight your ghost every day foiling it's escape plans the thought of freedom from you is sickening, still, you're depleting slowly from the seams of my memory. = But you, .... but you my beloved only you, only you had you stayed around more, it would've been different = deservingly I have become proud for the little time received i knew you in recognizing a smile for what I’ve accom...

  Maria's Beauty Sleep listen on youtube or here   you're a small wonder sleeping maria, pour me a shot of jack to numb my delusional fingers from burning pages of lost time. = tear a piece of my mind seat it by the table sun to gaze I borrowed patience from the feeble waiting for you, while candy alarm clocks , on the beds of my illusions, singing "you're a small wonder baby maria," = the steady rhythm of your breathing breaking into my world, stories of being tired, running with the wild pack of crazy secrets, hijacking my nighttime killer kiss in the palm of your curled fingers. = I'm waiting for you to wake up to tell me what wonders you saw, little do you know, my love you're a small wonder by yourself just sleeping. = I miss you, & stalled time is trying to move on, still waiting for you to wake up from your beauty sleep "you're a small wonder sleeping maria," "you're a beautiful small wonder just s...